leaving on a jet plane

-i dont really sleep well last nite. all this mercun, fireworks were so bloody loud. im a light sleeper by nature, so its like a torture to try to sleep with all this commotion outside.

-mom called last night. im still reevaluating. booked the ticket already, but im not sure im going.. i dunno why i hesitate on leaving.

"maybe because this is not leaving.. this is like running away.."

bags are all packed. err, not really bags. just one bag. i travel light. i'll get some more cloth when i reached there. yesterday i got extra locks and deadbolts for some doors. so i spent hours yesterday installing locks and bolts myself. im impressed with myself! haha..

stocked up some groceries n fruits in the fridge for my parents when they got home, in case my parents come home late. holiday season, burglars everywhere.

- my sisters text me and asked me am i really going? actually, i dont feel like going, because i dont want to. why am i hesitating so much?

"you are scared you are going to miss him more.."

maybe, going away isnt such a bad idea after all..

:)

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye


But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing


Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring


So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way


Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go