i heart you...

there are so much things i wish i can do more lately..

- more time blogging. altho, i dont really have much ideas or thoughts to spare lately, coz i find politics to be somewhat not-worthy-to-discuss, for i'd be singing the same old song, only wif a different tune.

- more time to go out. im not really an outdoor person, but i love going places n sightseeing. one thing i like, is hiking masuk utan. muahahaha.. but my last hike was in 2007, with my old team, tracking up the 2km up to the entrance of Gua Niah in Sarawak. (2km is only the beginning, inside the caves, were miles n miles of tracks some more..) u see, i love this jungle trekking, but one thing i would never could tolerate are the bugs n centipedes, milipedes, n ultimately, the PACAT. yaikksss.. im going to have one of those massive heart attack if even one tiny pacat find its way and land on my leg. seriously.. i am so dem geli with dat lil bugger. n same goes to every lil tiny thing that resembles them.. so, while i love going for a hike, i am always ever so dilligent in maintaining distance from spots where u might find one of them bugger like muddy splotchy soils.. i remembered, while we were trekking at Niah, i stayed in the middle of the tracks, afraid that i might somehow  caught that lil bugger if i swayed near the muddy banks.. hihi...

- more time with my sisters.. i find it sad that we were all living separately, so far away from each other.. i mean, the time b4 everybody got married is the only time we get to be young n spend the time away. but of course, we cant really all get what we want, so we just have to make do with whatever we have...

- i wish i can allocate some more time for my newly found hobby, altho today is only my first run after a while, i think its quite addictive. the knotted pain in my thigh has loosen up, n if i were to have it my way, i wanted to go out this evening for another run, but, then again, i have to go n stock up piles of goods for next week. see, my schedule is already jammed pack for the weekdays, n that will include the weekends as well..

- more trip to kk. i dont know why lately, i loved driving up to kk. altho it eats most of my weekend, but i found that driving is very 'therapeutic'. weird huh.. im still waiting for my father 'fortuner' to arrive, so that i can have a go at it. haha..

- switching business direction. been thinking alot about this. i mean, i love what im doing now, but it took up so much of my time, space and energy and leave me with so little time to even rest, sleep n enjoy whatever stuff that i wanted to do.. *sigh..* not that im being ungrateful, the money was more than i would ever wanted to, bless me, but i sincerely got tired of doing this. but, at the moment, working is what i needed.. for some reasons, working hard, being a certified workaholic has its advantage. it leaves u with less time to think about other things. working all the time is a nice distraction.

- there are many more items on my wishlist but lets leave it as it is for now. last but not least, right this minute, there is only one person that i really wish i could talk to.. but of course, that person would think that it was 'such a waste'..