blog vs facebook

>> Rabu, Oktober 06, 2010

i used to think that i might be one of those people who can get past this millenia without having to ever associate myself with Facebook. totally wrong. try again. hehe...

nah, i spent whatever left of my free time mainly in facebook. one, because its easy. all i have to do, is look at my phone, and taadaaaaa, all is there. two, there are always funny people with funny things to say, and some times, i get to be funny too. ha!

me on the facebook, is so different with me on the blog. hypocrite much? no? yes? nah, not really.  on the facebook, its me being me on crack. seriously. thats why, i seldom add bloggers i know, as a friend on my facebook. seldom is overstating it. i only add two bloggers i know in my FB, and the turned down many other requests, including Aduka's. funny enough, its like me having two secret, distinctively separate life. which soon, cease to exist. ha!

and yes, the fact that i am talking about my facebook here in my blog, instead of talking about my blog in my facebook, says it all. which is the real me? me here, or me over there?

*ponders for a while*

its been bugging me, really. why cant i be open and honest, like i do now in my blog, to the rest of my friends and families on the facebook. instead, i get to be the happy me over there. happy me on crack, i must say. ha ha ha.

yes, talking about heartaches in front of all the people in this world, so not gonna happen anytime soon. ha!


*pause*

crap. i got caught up in liking quotes in FB. ha ha!
so, i lost my train of thoughts.
continue..... tomorrow? no?
i dont make promises i couldnt keep...
:p

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broken

>> Isnin, September 06, 2010

im one of those ppl who are good at pretending.

hiding.
being a ghost.
in the sense that, i never truly let people knows what inside of me.
or to be precise, i never, almost never let people know
..when im in pain.

as the years go by, im gettin good at camouflaging.
too good im afraid.
way too good that, at a hint of pain, i turn my back.
i always do.
i feigned ignorance.
pretend like i dont give a shit.
when in fact, my heart bleeds a river.

and people thought, i was charming.
funny.
witty with wicked sense of humour.
ppl thought im the one who laughs at everything.
i do laugh. a lot.
but when the laughter fades, 
something in me dies too.
im utterly lost.
i only have tomorrow to look forward to.
but what i really want, is to dwell on the past.
i want to cling on the past so much so..
it hurts.
i want to cling to the past because i want to undo all the mistakes that i have done.
i want to undo all the hurts, all the things that i wish i never do.
i wanted a clean break.
a clean slate.

i want a fresh start.
i want to look forward to tomorrow,
but the past is slowly catching up.

im tired of being alone.
no. its not love that i crave.
its weird, but i dont think i am capable of love anymore.
incapable of loving someone...
and incapable of loving back in return.

i feel so cold.

so cold and hard.
i wonder where the girl i used to be.
i used to think that love conquers all.
i used to think that love is sacred.

none of this mattered anymore.
now that i have said it out loud,
it broke my heart to acknowledge the fact that,
to admit this to myself,

i am broken.



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third attempt

>> Khamis, Ogos 12, 2010

this is my feeble third attempt.

i'm thinking about you...
and trying hard..
not to miss you.

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second attempt

>> Ahad, Ogos 08, 2010

ok, this is now my second attempt.
i had these stream of conciousness just begging for me to think it all over.
for quite some time, there is this one thing that bugs me the most.

i.am.wild.

and not in a good way.
although i tried hard to make myself go soft..
i ended up being unpredictably wild.
and rude.
but like usual, i chalked it up to me being...
cool.

which sucks.
cause being cool, is seriously over-rated.

for a second attempt, i suck big time. lol.

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first attempt.

this is my first attempt to write.
tho i dont think its gonna work.
its just that my heart isn't into it.
i'll do the second attempt soon.
thanks for being here.
but then again, why are you even here?
:p

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ryyan unplugged.

>> Jumaat, Mei 21, 2010

2 months old ryyan laughing out loud with his daddy.
long live the superior gene! muahahahaha

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drawn together.. and not pulling away

>> Khamis, Mei 13, 2010

catchy, yeah?
twas a tagline from the season finale of TVD.
drawn together.. and not pulling away.
have no idea why this line made me think.
and no, im not drawn to anything or anyone.

this week has been a total blast.
meaning, i keep making money. haha.
anyway, i was rearranging my future.
meaning, planning on what the hell am i gonna do with the rest of my life
which, is a loooooong way to go. assuming i didnt get hit by a truck.
so i've decided.
but im not gonna share it just yet.
haha.

anyway, tonight at 8pm in the USA, the season finale for TVD will be aired.
means i have to wait till tomorrow night before i'll be able to download it.
by then everybody else in this world would know what already happened.
and i will have more restraint so that i wont peek at the synopsis etc.

ok, myself is getting boring.
but, this is all i've got at the moment.
so, later.

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say all i need

>> Ahad, Mei 09, 2010

woke up early.
as usual i guess.
took a long walk to stretch my legs.
while walking, this song kept echoing in my head..

"Do you know where your heart is?

Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?


Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted


Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold...."

enjoy.

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so, here it goes..

>> Sabtu, Mei 08, 2010

im not sure whether im having premonition, deja vu or maybe im a clairvoyant?
laughs out loud.
anyway, i have one of those loooooong day.
but, im loving it.
i never wanted to be an agent of any type of brands or products or whatnots.
capitalism. remember?
laughs.
but, heres the thing.
i signed up to be an agent of HR products.
only because, after thorough observation using my mom as the chck points, im declaring that the products actually worked as claimed.
so kudos to HR.
so im officially selling all those goat products and such.
and heres another thing.
in two weeks im buying myself some goats.
on cue, people, laugh out loud. haha
so anyway, this is only a pet project. im fascinated by goats at the moment.
weird, definitely weird.
do you know that goat's milk is the second best milk after breast's milk?
i never knew this before.
so, i thought come next school holiday, im gonna hop down into the department of veterinary, yup, jabatan haiwan, to see what kind of goat that is worth to be bought.
nah, im not looking into a massive production of goats. just gonna buy 1 male and two females and breed them.
oh no, theres no way in hell im gonna touch them. goat are gross. ewww. im gonna send them right away to my grandfather at his kampung and ask him to take care of the goats since he got nothing else to do. heh.
so anyway, maybe if they breed, i'd be a breeder one day. haha.
this is all becauuse i have no desire to stick my neck and live a life in a city so im going all backwards.

last but not least.
i know im gonna regret this.
im gonna regret this soon after i hit the PUBLIST POTS button.
but what the hell.
once is too many times already.
but err..
i kinda miss you.

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crazee iz what crazee doezzzzz..

>> Jumaat, Mei 07, 2010

okay im in a good mood.
full stomach.
good day.
and its friday!!
and its the day when i can download the latest episode of TVD. woohoo...
im downloading it as i speak, so to speak, but i cant wait for it to finish in another hour and a half. im crazeeeee about TVD. and im about to shit in my pants, so to speak, coz the tweets from the cast and the writers make the waiting such an unbearable pain in the ass.

cant wait to see damon aka ian somerhalder. cant wait to see alaric as well, the hot, lushy butt of a historian. hihi. owh, cant wait to see stefan brooding again. stefan should just kill himself so damon can be with elena. haha. i wrote about this already, didnt i?

so dude and dudettes, if u are as crazee as i am, lets watch TVD. next week is the season finale. season 2 TVD starts in september. but i dont mind. in june, True Blood is coming back for their 3rd season. woohooo. cant wait to see what happen to Bill after he proposed to Sookie. well, some asshole kidnapped Bill when Sookie went to the toilet. what a bummer. and also in june, we get an extra dose of edward cullen. again. i hope this eclipse is better than new moon.

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brunch, anyone?

>> Ahad, Mei 02, 2010

so, its one o'clock in the afternoon.
lo and behold, im still firing up on all gears.
so i decided i should just go out take a walk n get me some food.
maybe, if i eat and stuff myself, i'd finally go to sleep.
and that reminds me, i didnt eat anything since...
..friday! yep, last meal was on friday. check.
so here it is, the perfect singleton's sunday brunch.
sayur kacang and daging masak merah complete with chocolate ice with extra cream.
i'm gonna stuff myself.
coming right up!

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this is bad.

real bad..
its a minute to ten in the morning.
but i havent shown any sign of fatigue.
not even a tiny inclination to suggest that i might fall asleep any minutes from now.
all i kept thinking was..
i wanted to drink more.
sigh...
i am so gonna regret this when my eyes go all fluffy tomorrow.

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so, here's the thing.

it's eight in the morning.
and my body is so revved up.
my eyes are wide awake.
i felt so... alive.

i will regret this state of conciousness over some time tomorrow when i have to stay on my feet for 16 hours. shouldnt have drank all those coffee. what a bummer.

but here's the thing that somehow cheer up my day and night.
you know how hooked up i am now with TVD.
duhh~~ TVD? The Vampire Diaries. haha. gotcha!

so i was awake all night long.
with nothing to do.
except staring at my screen. no, i lied. i watched True Blood. again.
aside of that, i keep on checking my twitter page.
i was actually checking up on iansomerhalder.
ian was one of those people who is using twitter to update ppl about something other than himself.
 which is a rare quality in a breather since he IS a striving star with millions of fans worldwide.
the way he kept twittering about asking ppl to check on those CNN reports on the oil spillage near Mexican Gulf is so heartbreaking.
and he literally begged ppl to go to this animal center in Atlanta to adopt a pet, WHICH by the way, got no respons at all! he ACTUALLY went there himself but no one showed up.
i guess he had scores of fans, but no one is bothered to care about adopting a pet.
i think thats awfully nice of him to actually care.
he even took a short video documenting his visit to the center.
sweeeeettt...

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aches

its seven in the morning.
havent slept a second since last night.
drank too much caffeine. i had six long shots bottoms up too many. or was it seven?eight?
i.. dont know.. why i drank that much.
its just that..
i dont wanna sleep.
i couldnt take my mind of things.
of you.
no. i lied.
i stayed awake.
so that i can keep on thinking.
feeling.
sensing.
knowing.
waiting.
hurting.
missing...

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sparkplug

>> Isnin, April 26, 2010

yesterday..

i was being my usual self on weekend.yeap. the lazy me. i hate cooking if im the only one whose gonna eat so i settle for a simple nasi campur take away. as usual, i have this one cafe that i frequented every weekend. so yesterday, it was packed. u see, im the kind of person who are crowdaphobic. wahahahaha. i made that word up. i hate crowds but i was so hungry i decided i'll just barge in. so, there was this well dressed fella who serves me. i was a bit perplexed because he was too nicely dressed to be just a waitress? but, who cares. as long as i got my nasi campur.

"cik nak nasi?"
"ha ah."
"makan sini or take away?" wooo. slalu orang cakap makan sini ke bungkus.
"tapau."
"nak nasi banyak ke sikit?" seriously, what kind of question is that? if i said banyak, i will look like crap, if i said sikit, i will look like someone who control-control.
"banyak." damn. the guy actually smirk. SMIRK not smile. i gave him my non-chalant, no expression, blank face with no sign that i saw his SMIRK.
"cik nak lauk ape?" i pointed at what looks like kari ayam n sayur kacang buncis.
"makan kambing yer?"
"owh. ingatkan ayam. x pe, bg saya ayam masak kicap jer la."
"minum?"
"air mineral je. botol besar. tq." wahahahaha. i am so lazy i didnt even bother to boil water.
"semuanya rm5.50" another smirk. fuh.. what a weird guy.

today...

 i was sweeping the floor when suddenly, a  kid run towards me.
"akak! akak! pakcik saya suruh bagi ni.." cool.. another paper with a handphone no written nicely.
"sapa pakcik kamu ni?"
"pakcik suruh akak telepon dulu."
"aik? alah bg tahu la. akak kasik 50sen." wahahahahahaa..
"pakcik sy yang jual nasi campur dgn akak." damn..
"camana plak dia tahu akak niaga sini?"
"saya la bg tahu.. hahaahaha.. akak, sy nak 50 sen.."

as usual, i took the paper.
and as usual too, i lost it.
and yeah, i have to switch cafe from this weekend onwards.
what a bummer. i like that cafe because it was easy to find parking spot.

and, if i were to entertain every single paper with a handphone no written on it, i'd probably have two or three kids by now. i dont know why i didnt take the chance. or maybe, it was fate preventing me from doing exactly that. heh. easy peasy. blame it on Fate. haha.

eh. and why is this entry titled sparkplug? i was reminiscing something my dear friend said to me last night. it goes something like this..

she: boring giler single nih. yg asik ngorat aku seme laki orang. diorang saja nak menggatal ngan aku sbb bini diorang kat kl.
me: hahaha. very funny mik.. jgn layan jantan miang. carik penyakit namanya tu.
she: hahahah.. aku tak kesah jadik bini no 2.. janji diorang ada duit..
me: kalau mcm tu, make sure ko jadik bini no 2 or no 3. janji ko la bini muda forever. hahaha...
she: tuh la.. weyyy ko lak camner. takde org ngorat ke...
me: bese2 la. maleh nak layan.
she: apa kes yg cikgu tu...
me: blablablablablablablabla... takde spark.. aku pon tatau kenapa. takde feeling ler beb. maybe aku ni mental. hahahaha
she: kalau takde spark, ko tukar sparkplug je. hahahaha..

it was funny while it last. and the truth is, it wasn't so funny now. i mean, if u wanna 'start' a 'relationship', it should be something that 'entice' you. not something that we picked out randomly. not something that we pick because we are bored. not something that we start because we are scared that we are gonna be left behind. i mean, im in my LATE twenties. but STRANGE, i didnt feel like it. haha.

i'd probably WILL regret this but heck, im gonna write it anyway. when i said SPARK, i really mean it. it was hard to get to know someone if you dont feel that SPARK of attraction. nah, u might think im CHOOSY (is that a word?) but no, it wasnt about being too cerewet. nah. its like, u know someone for a minute, an hour, a day and BAM!! u feel that connection. as if there was just something about them that keeps you wanting to know more. and even after you learn everything about them, you'd still see the spark. its like being on the opposite side of the world but having something in common. and the best SPARK is when both of you feel the same way.. wooo... cheesy. hehe..

and of course, for some known or unknown reason, we have to come back to the reality of it all. Not All Spark Produce Flame. what a bummer. sometimes, lack of oxygen could caused the flame to burn out. haha..

but seriously guys, im all for the spark thingy.
oh heck. why the hell am i thinking about you?

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facebook? anyone?

>> Ahad, April 25, 2010

due to some sense on insecurity, i decided not to publish my facebook. haha.
but i'll publish the snapshot of my new info.


yeap. that would summarize the kind of person i am. haha.


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my new obsession

i figured, since im writing craps, i might as well throw more craps while i still have some time to kill.

for the past few months, im kinda obsessed with all this vampires stuff. muahaha.
laugh all you want. dissin' me wont do you or me any good. as i grow older, i find myself to be desensitize. im more mean now. haha. yeappp. instead of becoming like a lady that im supposed to, im becoming someone else. i've nurtured the mean-me to the level that im so comfortable being mean. and rude. huahuahua.

im more...
sharp tounge (read: my words hurt people lately.)
rough.
heartless.

wooo. whats happening to me?
anyhow, thats for later.

my new obsession would be all things related to vampires. haha. of course, tv shows. you see, i dont have the luxury to befriend people, most of my friends are either married or so far away tending to their own single minded singletons. yeapp. this singletons crap would fit another entry.

like i said before i got sidetracked, im loving all these vampires stuff to the extent that im opening a twitter account so that i can keep track on whats happening with the cast. woohoo. if thats not obsession, than please do tell me what was that because i cant wait for the next episode of vampire diaries. lucky me because come next monday, times flew so fast its soon be thursday where the new episode will air on CW network. dont bother flipping your channel, CW is not on Astro. haha.

anyhow, things i love about this show that its got plots that aint static, every episodes keeps you wanting for more. haha. cliche. so unlike malaysian drama. urgh. (suddenly, i have this annoying flashback of nurkasih). well, wont waste my time dissin' about nurkasih again. been there done that. if  you happen to watch it too, then you'll know that the evil brother Damon, is looking more dashing and kinder too which earn a soft spot with me too, like the millions of viewers who beginning to vote for Team Damon on facebook. (yes people, im spending more time on my facebook, as oppossed to my stand b4). and the good brother, Stefan, is beginning to bore me. maybe Stefan should just kill himself.

Its one mroe season to the season finale.*sigh..* afterthat, no more vamp shows for me. i have to wait till next June for the new season of TrueBlood. cant wait to see Bill COmpton and Sookie again. And yes, comes next June too, Twilight Saga continue. Eclipse, the third installment of the series is released. now, i used to be so enarmoured with this Twilight thing, but the more i watch vampire diariees and trueblood, the more i realized, what an idiot both this Edward and Bella. haha. nah.. new moon was a disapointment for me. I hope eclipse will be better. hopefully.

not bad for a piece of crap.
haha.

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poets and craps

i used to be a poet.
yeepppp.
that was when i was feeling heartbroken.
or sad.
or have this ample emotion that i just have to share with you.

but.
when i un-poet myself.
i find myself to be..
writing craps.
yup.
poet turns crap.

haha.

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rise and shine

>> Sabtu, April 24, 2010

its been a while.
i know.
24 hours a day is almost insufficient.

i wanted to write, but the lack of ideas, urges and times have negatively impact my decision of never to bother again.

i dont even bother to read news.
i dont even know whats happening in the big bad world out there.
i am so totally clueless.
i go online everyday, but i only open my facebook to see the updates from family and friends.
and of course, i go online to download all those shows that i missed because i spent almost 16 hours a day working.

i am so focus on working.
day in and day out.
its so refreshing not having to think about anything at all.

and so, couple of days ago, i wanted to start writing again.
and so, i tried to find a one template that will be THE one.
and fudge.
its so hard to find THE one.
can i say that looking for THE one template that will satisfy you is the same like looking for THE ONE MR Right?

so yeah, maybe i'll continue later.

definitely maybe.
because..
maybe is a few steps up from no.
but..
its also a million steps down from definite.

haha.

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nightmare

>> Ahad, Mac 21, 2010

since im a loner and always alone (but never lonely), i got no one else to share my perverted nightmare. so i just have to jot this one down. coz i cant bear having to replay the scene over and over in my head.

not so many nights ago, i got this really pervert dream. no, having a perverted nightmare doesnt make me a pervert. its just so happen that i am so 'geli' after i woke up.

not so long ago i came to know this one guy. lets call him Encik H. but try as i might, there are certain aspects of him that really gets on my nerve. ok, i shouldnt list down everything in details, cause there is a chance i might puke on my pillow, but seriously, when he is around, i feel 'geli'.

so back to my dream. all i remembered was, i was playing with some kids, location at my kampung. i was dressed in my usual torn jeans n t shirt, i was bare foot, muds all over my cloth, feet dirty with soil and my hair is totally messed up as i played with the kids. suddenly, there was this big car (model unknown), stopped and parked in front of us.

i looked up and saw Encil H came out of the car, wearing light brown suit, hair combed nicely, smiling. the part where i want to kill myself is that, in my dream, i thought he looked OK, where in real life, i might thought that accidentally spilled oil on his hair.

so he walked towards me, and suddenly, he was standing so close to me! as if we r going to kiss?? ewwwww.. i hate this part!! demm!! in my stupid perverted dream, Encik H picked few strands of my hair and tuck it behind my ears!! and he even try to brushed off some dirt on my shirt and dusted off some stupid leaves on my hair.

ewwwww gross!

why cant i dream about richard cypher or even darken rahl????

shit. i am so dem geli now.

but the second part where i want to kill myself now is the fact that, in that dream, i cant remember feeling angry when he did that!! ewwwww.. did i actually like that in my dream. dem!!

if u think thats romantic, please, spare me this. its only romantic if u fancy the guy. if its not, its gross.

huh. finally.

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welcome baby ryan!

>> Selasa, Mac 16, 2010

ahh.. where do i begin. so many things happen lately. i'll cut to the chase la. today is the 3rd day im in labuan, visiting again our firstborn nephew, muhammad ryan, born on 5th march. ryan@ian sgt comel. mcm mama dia jugak. thank god, ryan tak itam dah mcm bapak nya. hahaha...

we drove all the way to kk then to menumbok and caught the 5pm ferry from menumbok to labuan . we choose to drive so easier to get around later. it turns out that, there were no other passenger on that day,so we got the ferry all to ourselves. but i was already so tired from the 6 hours driving, i just wish the ferry would sail faster. we arrive at labuan jetty at around 8pm, because apparently, the ferry was not given permission to dock due to some error.

most of the time we just stay at home looking after jane who is still sore from the operation, but shes gaining strength. mom is here since before, so she is getting enough rest. baby ryan is the most happy baby i ever see. he didnt cry, and he sleeps a lot too. mom have to wake him up so that she could bath him. so funny. he'd cry a little when mom wake him up, but then he'll open his eyes and stay calm. in the morning when he wakes up, he smiles a lot. so funny. sengih smpi nampak gusi tuuu.. hahaha..

i remembered something from before.. when ryan is a week overdue from birth, the doc is already worried. i placed a call to my grandmother in indonesia, and she told me, its in our 'genetic/keturunan' that most women in our family carry the pregnancy till 10-12 months. grandma said, she carried my mother until 12 months into pregnancy. some people called it 'bunting kerbau'. so by right, we shuldnt worry lah, but it so happen that ryan poo poo while still inside. bless him.

so tomorrow we'll be heading back to kk. i dread the driving and the ferry. i once enjoy ferry rides, but laltely, i cant bear sitting for so long. i usually enjoy stillness and quiet, but lately, i just wanna get it over with. got some pictures, but im way too lazy to upload it.  ryan's pic is in my facebook, look it up. if u havent got it, then it wasnt meant for u to see. wahahahaha

cheerios!

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ya Allah,take care of my sister..

>> Jumaat, Mac 05, 2010

Ya Allah,
Have mercy on my sister,
Let all be good for her,
Let the operation be successful,
Take care of her and the baby..

I may never be the most faithful servant,
But for all the wrongs that I've done,
All im asking is this..
let my sister live safe and sound..
is all im asking..

Take away everything that I have..
Even my future, even my life..
I wont even  blink an eye...
but please ya Allah..
Let my sister live through this..

Jane has been admitted into the hospital since yesterday. But till now, the labor has not started yet. Worst, the baby already start to suffocate in his own liquids and mess. So Jane will undergo operation. I wish I can fly over tonite, but I have to wait till the morning.. If you read this, pray for my sister, Jennifer and her unborn baby...

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its not worth it. seriously. dont.

>> Isnin, Februari 22, 2010

this piece caught my attention.

Stesen radio kini diwajib putar lagu baru artis tempatan



22/02/2010 8:08pm


KUALA LUMPUR 22 Feb. – Mulai 1 Mac ini, semua stesen radio diwajibkan memutarkan lagu-lagu daripada album atau “single” terbaru artis tempatan untuk tempoh tertentu, kata Menteri Penerangan Komunikasi dan Kebudayaan, Datuk Seri Dr. Rais Yatim.
Beliau berkata, langkah itu juga akan menjadi antara syarat pemberian lesen stesen radio dan beliau percaya pemegang lesen stesen radio tidak akan keberatan untuk mematuhi arahan itu.

Arahan itu akan dikuatkuasakan mengikut Seksyen 33 Akta Komunikasi dan Multimedia (AKMM) 1998 supaya stesen radio mempromosikan lagu-lagu tempatan memandangkan usaha itu didapati masih kurang diutamakan, katanya.

seriously?
so now, whenever i turn on the radio, i'd be listening to some shit song that i seriously didnt enjoy? please. please. please. listening to radio while driving is one of my favorite thing to do. its the only time where i can sit without hearing unwanted voices. sitting inside my car is like being in a sanctuary. serene but not without mission.

i think this rais fella wanted us to listen to MORE malay song instead of indonesian song. so, do i give a shite about entertainment industry in malaysia especially the long list of not really talented singers and throne of actors and actresses who cant act but seriously want to act? and to top it off, who are not really pretty but people thought they were pretty because they wear spaghetti strap and wear an inch thick make up.

i seriously dont give a shite. i make it a point, like my personal thing NOT TO TUNE INTO ANY MALAY SPEAKING DJ's RADIO. here are my reasons. you may or may not agree with me.

1. i dont like to listen to malay songs. now, dont go around calling me racist. i have my reason for not wanting to listen to malay songs, especially the new ones sang by those who called themselves singers because they won some stupid reality shows,
 that manipulate the entire stupid malaysians into voting them to be the winner. these type of singers, can go fly kites.

2. because, if i listen to malay radio channels, i have to sit through some songs that really shouldnt be recorded at all. i remembered one night, i heard this song by some lady.. the lyrics still haunt me till today. the lyrics goes something like this..

"bayangkan diriku..tapak sulaiman..."

and i thought, what the fudge?

we, malaysians have to bear and listen to this type and level of song, sang by mediocre voice, who dress themselves as if they were born american, i mean.. seriously. now the government wanna make it compulsory for radio stations to air all the new songs, which i can guarantee, will defnitely stink to high heaven.

3. now this third reason is basically why I AM SO NOT GOING TO TUNE IN TO MALAY SPEAKING RADIO. except klasik nasional. i can bear listening to the DJ of klasik nasional, but ERA? MuzikFM? if i accidentally tune into these channel, i might accidentally puke.
have u paid attention to their morning shows, especially ones where they pick an issue, and have those losers callers talking and telling them stories. i remembered this particular day i was driving around in KK with jane, and we  ACCIDENTALLY  tune into ERA, the morning show, which im not what it was called. i just say it was morning show because it whas a program aired in the morning.

and the topic ranges from pernahkah anda menduakan pasangan anda? bagaimanakah anda mengelak dari kantoi? ceritakan pengalaman anda sehingga anda boleh pasang dua.

seriously, topic like this, is really insulting. come on la, they even have people calling and discussing about how great it was to be in two relationship, one mutually exclusive of the other. and those gedik female will giggle and laughing and share their secrets of having two guys go crazy over them but eventually have to choose one. and also those story about married female who falles for anothermarried male.

seriously? dicussing this and choosing this as an issue of great importance to be discussed in public? and we lament about social problems?

give me a break.

i know, i know, you might say, those type of radio are for entertainment purposes, programmmes pick to suit the listeners, blablabla. yeah, i agreed. they choose their content based on how receptive will the audience be. but of course, its my right not to be subjected by these degrading, sorry excuse of entertainment.

no way jose.

thats why i love the morning show by these tro DJs from traxx FM. i dont bother to know their names, but i listen to them every morning. they are funny without insulting my intelligence. plus they gave out funny facts which makes me laugh hard. and also, they dont really talk that much, because probably, they realize that people only tune it to traxx fm for their delicous long list of current english songs that are great to listen to. unlike some radio channel who prefer to blabbing about aper yang anaa buat bersama kekasih anda pada malam Valentine?

so please, whatever this rais yatim try to do, i hope it will not affect english channel because apparently, he was referring to many malay singers whoc ant sell their album.

daripada dgr lagu malaysia, might as well dengar lagu indon.

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live, life, love.

>> Ahad, Februari 14, 2010

still got few minutes more to spare before i packed all my laptops and peripherals.

live and let live.
have expectation from life, but dont expect too much. it will only lead to disapointment. but of course, never cease hoping.

"what happened to all the cool people in the world?"
"nothing happen to them. you just have too high expectation.."

:)

i'be gone for a while. thanks for visiting. i have this couple daily visits from UK and Germany, and i wish i knew who you guys were, but thanks all the same. and to the Jabatan Siasatan Jenayah Komersil Bukit Aman fella, i have no idea what you are doing here reading my ramblings, but you wont find anything illegal here. and i thought police are supposed to be real smart and all.and please, i got no picture anywhere in my blog, i aint that stupid. and the picture you were showing my 'friend'? it wasnt me. i'd save you the trouble but you wont find my pic anytime soon. i'm really a private person. if you are smart enough to find my blog, i'd trust that you are smart enough to get my phone no. you are of course welcome to call me if you got any question, and please dont pretend that you are interested with our t shirt, its kinda lame. though i have no idea what good will that do, but dont expect me to come running to you. i got better things to do. or so i pretend.

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and of course, i'm going to miss you so much.

i wish..
for so many things..
but really..
..at this moment..
all i wish for..
is just..
to see you.

take care all..

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leaving on a jet plane

-i dont really sleep well last nite. all this mercun, fireworks were so bloody loud. im a light sleeper by nature, so its like a torture to try to sleep with all this commotion outside.

-mom called last night. im still reevaluating. booked the ticket already, but im not sure im going.. i dunno why i hesitate on leaving.

"maybe because this is not leaving.. this is like running away.."

bags are all packed. err, not really bags. just one bag. i travel light. i'll get some more cloth when i reached there. yesterday i got extra locks and deadbolts for some doors. so i spent hours yesterday installing locks and bolts myself. im impressed with myself! haha..

stocked up some groceries n fruits in the fridge for my parents when they got home, in case my parents come home late. holiday season, burglars everywhere.

- my sisters text me and asked me am i really going? actually, i dont feel like going, because i dont want to. why am i hesitating so much?

"you are scared you are going to miss him more.."

maybe, going away isnt such a bad idea after all..

:)


All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye


But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing


Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring


So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way


Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

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sharing session: cerita kunyit

>> Sabtu, Februari 13, 2010

salah satu favret food i, is ayam goreng rempah mamak. nih fav dr dulu. so jap td tgh boring2, teringat nak surf resepi dia kengkonon..(which is so funny..coz wats the point? dah berbulan rasanya tak pijak dapur rumah sndiri.. :p)

anyway, i stumbled upon this blog.
http://balannambiar.wordpress.com/category/resipi-nasi-kandar-asli/

I quote:

Kunyit mengandungi bahan antiseptik yang baik untuk membunuh bakteria yang terdapat didaging ayam

it brings back memories. masa kecik dulu, my father bela banyak burung merpati. some of them were stray birds, injured birds yg my father letak dlm sangkar, n bela sampai burung tu boleh terbang semula. i used to watch my father tepek serbuk kunyit n ikat mana-mana parts yg luka dgn serai yg dibubuh kunyit paste. i asked my father, kunyit tu bukan untuk masak ke pa? my father ckp, kunyit ni untuk healing broken bones and cuts..

but it never occur to me back then la. hari ni bila teringat semula, i googled kunyit@tumeric healing properties associated with it being an antiseptic..

if you are interested, this might be a good read:

http://www.nzhealth.net.nz/herbs/turmeric.shtml
http://www.healthdiaries.com/eatthis/20-health-benefits-of-turmeric.html

here are some of the 20 benefits of taking kunyit@tumeric.

Here are 20 reasons to add turmeric to your diet:




1. It is a natural antiseptic and antibacterial agent, useful in disinfecting cuts and burns.

2. When combined with cauliflower, it has shown to prevent prostate cancer and stop the growth of existing prostate cancer.
3. Prevented breast cancer from spreading to the lungs in mice.
4. May prevent melanoma and cause existing melanoma cells to commit suicide.
5. Reduces the risk of childhood leukemia.
6. Is a natural liver detoxifier.
7. May prevent and slow the progression of Alzheimer's disease by removing amyloyd plaque buildup in the brain.
8. May prevent metastases from occurring in many different forms of cancer.
9. It is a potent natural anti-inflammatory that works as well as many anti-inflammatory drugs but without the side effects.
10. Has shown promise in slowing the progression of multiple sclerosis in mice.
11. Is a natural painkiller and cox-2 inhibitor.
12. May aid in fat metabolism and help in weight management.
13. Has long been used in Chinese medicine as a treatment for depression.
14. Because of its anti-inflammatory properties, it is a natural treatment for arthritis and rheumatoid arthritis.
15. Boosts the effects of chemo drug paclitaxel and reduces its side effects.
16. Promising studies are underway on the effects of turmeric on pancreatic cancer.

17. Studies are ongoing in the positive effects of turmeric on multiple myeloma.
18. Has been shown to stop the growth of new blood vessels in tumors.
19. Speeds up wound healing and assists in remodeling of damaged skin.
20. May help in the treatment of psoriasis and other inflammatory skin conditions.

so there you go, next time nak masak kari ke gulai ke, be sure to add tumeric. nak goreng ayam ke goreng ikan ke, tambah lg kunyit..

:)

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my father..

>> Jumaat, Februari 12, 2010

there are times when i enjoy conversing with my father.
there are also times when i dont particularly enjoy the experience.

my father is a man of the highest integrity i've ever known personally (since i dont really know that many people, so my father is the perfect example). in his line of duty, there are so many occasion that people always 'push envelope that contains valuable' to get their fair share of certain 'somethings'.

i was telling my father of how one perfect afternoon, i walked right into a restaurant where a YB, which was his childhood friend, was throwing a 'lunch party'. of course he recognized me, but, it is in my nature to ignore every politician, especially ones whom i knew for a fact, didnt do a thing to ensure the welfare of the rakyat in our area. be as it may that he is my father's childhood friend, to me, he's just another 'asshole'.

so imy father told me whether i was inclined to join his fellow childhood friend. i told him, the politician can kiss my pretty ass (of course, being a daughter, i rephrase these..) i couldnt care less, really. then my father told various stories of 'bribery' & 'corruption' that span his lifetime.

there was this particular favorite of mine. once, a towkay asked permission from my father to expand his hotel premises, but he didnt own that piece of property next to him. it was in my father's power to authorize the usage of that piece of property, so the towkay promised monthly 'allowances', promised to build new fancy fences and gates, and bla bla bla.. which obviously, my father gladly refused. i asked him, why not just take it? no one will know.. haha. my father told me, its not about whether we can cover our tracks, but its the fact that knowing we did something evil, that being dishonest, living without integrity, is not something that my father will ever considered.

i cherished all men and women, who despite all hardship in their life, has been able to remain true and honest to themselves. we might not live in a big fancy houses, drive the most technically advance cars, but rest assured, living based on the highest moral ground, is living a rich life where no evil is lurking. and i feel sorry for those politicians who lived ina big fancy houses, earning wealth from their evil deeds.. how did they cope with being dishonest all the time? 

i mean, how did they teach their kids? what did they say to their kids about morality? ethics? what did they say to their kids about heaven and hell?

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i had fun today

..or as close as it gets to fun. literally..


so today i woke up early. its a habit. im so used to waking up right before dawn, so its hard to linger in bed pretending to be asleep. so i went out to the workshop, get post-check-up, evaluating the car performance after massive parts replacement and few upgrades. the cdi still sounded like it wasnt really tight. so i get those boys to get dirty again. i paid a lot to get the car back on its 4 wheels so i am sooo not going to tolerate anything less than perfection.

then i went to a relative house, its located next to the beach where i usually have my morning run. but today, i dont plan on running. i bought few kuih muih n off i went to visit them. after small talks (i am not big on small talks), went to take a short walk at the beach. it was so windy, and the sky darkened in no time. i wanted to spend more time just sitting there doing nothing but the weather was going rough and the sea turned a shade murky. its a sign for me to go home.

mom called and asked me to pick her up at the clinic. went to get her, and she said she wanted to go to the fish market. oh no.. i always avoid going into any kind of shopping with my mother, be it for cloth, shoes, fishes or vegies. told my mom to hurry while i waited in the car, and she replied..

 "buat apa mak nak lama2 dalam pasar ikan, bukannya harum pun pun pasar ni.."

and she emerged, 40 minutes later with only 3 kg's of fishes.
women.. what is so interesting in shopping for 3kgs of fishes that it has to be more than 10minutes?

i hate shopping. n waiting. i have very low tolerance on ppl who have the habit of walking aimlessly admiring stuff in the shops (also known as window shopping). i mean, its not like you havent bought anything in ur life, why on earth would i be indecisive the next time im making the same shopping trip?

it beats me.

well, the true fun is when i got home, and read AT's blog.
i was laughing. mom keep asking me whats so funny. told her there is this one funny guy who are kinda entertaining..

well, lets just leave it at that.

:)

btw, what i so loved about friday, besides the obvious, of course, today is the day when new episodes of vampire diaries are released. i have just finished downloading episode 14 of vampire diaries. cant waittttt to watch it later tonite. but before that, i have to go out for a while again.

so maybe holiday without work isnt so bad after all.

i just have to pretend like everything is picture perfect.
easy peasy.

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i am so jealous. i am green with envy.

i envy the state of kelantan and the state of perak.
i envy the people who were led by virtue of islamic leaders.
i envy the moment where they pray together.
i envy the moment where they all pray together to get the oil royalty.
i envy the moment where the leaders launch 'bulan galakan sembahyang'.
i envy the state where they got more mosques than churches.

i am so green with envy.

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sadness

there are reasons why i hate being out of work.
working long hours is a cure.
it blocks all unwanted emotion.
a way to channel excess energy.
a diversion.
a coping mechanism.
at the end of the day, all is left is just fragments.

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every time i think of him, there is this sadness that washed over me.
its like standing near a sea shore, trying to enjoy the sun, and suddenly, a tide of waves come...
you stood firm on ur feet, but the current was way too strong.
and the waves just swept you away..

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some time ago..



"what happened??"
"it was over."
"how do you know..??"
"he told me so."
"how so???"
"he said never to wait for him.."
"HE TOLD YOU WHAT??"
"he said never to wait for him, and told me to go on with my life.. and its such a waste of time.."
"waste of time??"
"yup.. maybe i waste his time for nothing.."
"MAYBE?? DID YOU ASK HIM?? WHAT DID HE SAY??"
"nothing.. i kept quiet."
"WHY??"
"i was embarassed to ask anything.. plus i dont really know what to say"
"for a smart girl, you can be really stupid"
"i dont know how to respond.."
"but you like him, right???"
"always will"
"hmm.. and u still miss him???"
"all the time"
"i think you should talk to him to clear things out la"
"he dont really like me that way, i think.. my fault i guess"
"then i think you should let him go.. maybe he's not the one"
"i tried.. i just like him so much"
"did you love him?"


"......"

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musings

>> Khamis, Februari 11, 2010

first day of the holiday. and i am already bored.

i used to start my day at around 4am, come home at almost 7pm. daily. from mon to sat. on sunday, i got my weekly run, do some compulsory itemised shopping. then i sleep.
i usually woke up around 3.50am, took a quick shower, dressed in my 'work cloths' (aka jeans n shirt), grab my keys and off i go.

usually, when i got home, i switched on my laptop and took shower while its starting up.
and then i logged on the net, surf for news, blog hopping, till i got real sleepy, and off i sleep.
and that will sum up my activites for the day.

and now im on holiday, im totally bummed.
clueless.
without work.
i feel so bloody empty.
n bored.


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for today.
i run in the morning. the usual route.
then i went to the workshop that i frequented. today, got my timing belt changed. 2 days ago, i got the starter bushing replaced, and the whole CDI replaced as well, coz there are many occasions that my car overheated, and the engine wont start. next, i bought a new pair of back bush, needed replacement too, so that my car wont sound like its going to disintegrate every time i hit a dip on the road. also, bought a new spark plug, cause everytime i started the engine, it seems like its goin 'shaky'. and also got new beltings, new bearings for the timing belt (i could have bought the full set, but i didnt know that at first) and also new starter rings.

when i finished shopping for parts, i went back to the 'overly friendly' band of trio 'malay' brothers who run the workshop. (the only reason i went to this particular 'trio brothers' workshop is that i can get cheaper human labor prices compared to the chinese workshop that my father suggested. i only have to smile a lot at them, making small talks, sits and sometimes walk around looking particularly interested in whatever they were doing, and look dumb and cute once in a while and act as if i got no brains inside my skull. then i got almost 50% off the usual rates.)

what can i say? they are men afterall. and i am just another damsel in distress, helpless with a car that almost died on me... :)

and no, this is not an exploitation of sexes. i am totally against using gender to gain the upper hand :))

urgh. im bored. im goin out.

later.

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Kalau nak naikkan harga, naikkan jer la. Bangsat.

>> Jumaat, Februari 05, 2010

If harga gula naik dipasaran antarabangsa, dan kerajaan harus naikkan harga gula, naikkan jer la. Yang lagi nak spekulasi sana sini tentang harga apa ke jadah? Macam haram. Sial tak sudah. Kalau nak naikkan harga, terus jer naikkan on the spot. Tak payah nak cakap harga gula naik lepas tahun Baru Cina ke, tahun baru Yahudi ke, tahun baru Bahai ke. Bodoh melantun. bangsat mcm haram. dasar yahudi. Arghh bengangnyer.

Bila wat spekulasi harga, pemborong akan tros ambil kesempatan. pemborong ke pengilang ke akan mula sorok barang. lagi tak paham ke? apa yg bodoh sgt ni? tak tahu ke betapa azabnya bila nak meniaga tp barang2 asas semua tak dijual?? sial sungguh. eh bodoh. kerja makan gaji buta ke? otak sorok kat bontot? yg pegi cakap harga gula naik lepas tahun baru cina, tp umum sebulan lebih awal apa ke jadah haramnye punya sial punya statement? ambik kau. bodoh wal bangsat wal celaka.

pegi mampus la.

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dont let me go.. (2)

>> Selasa, Februari 02, 2010



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bukan satu penyelesaian..

i read this.

http://saifulislam.com/?p=7508

*sigh...*

should i?
should i not...?
am i supposed to..?
maybe i am not supposed to..
but what if it was meant to..?
but maybe it was not meant to..

perhaps.

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don't let me go..

>> Isnin, Februari 01, 2010

never say never: the fray

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand
You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together
Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

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Lindungilah dia..

>> Isnin, Januari 25, 2010

Semoga Allah melindungi sahabat kami, AdukaTaruna, dari segala kejahatan manusia-manusia dan dari kejahatan atas perbuatan dirinya sendiri.. Ameen..

-its been a long day. AT's blog is like being mob by a bunch of loonies. how did it come to this, i dont know. i mean, of course i know what lead to this, but, it was supposed to be another day of AT making a way over the top crude joke. but yeah, its too far already. but strange, i didnt feel anything. am i that desensitize that i felt nothing?

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immortality

>> Khamis, Januari 21, 2010

what do stefan salvatore & william thomas compton have in common?

guess guess guess..

dont know? ok. lemme change the question.

what do stefan salvatore, william thomas compton & edward cullen have in common?

haha.

>>immortality. at least being vampires and stuff make them immortal.

i just got back from cari makan. im so tired, in fact, im so tired i cant make my self sleep! now thats the first time. i dont know why but i kinda like.. got hooked up with vampires show. tormented soul, being in love with someone who kinda oblivious to how u feel, just spoke volumes. real life is way too tough. finding comfort in supernatural stuff, albeit its fictional seems a nice way to de-supress.

since im bored, lets talk immortal.


vampire diaries

i got the first season. 10 episodes total then the shows is put on hiatus for another 8 weeks. so today, 21st January is THE DAY when the 11th episode is starting again.. woohooo i wont miss it for anything. (i mean, i WONT miss it, not even if today happen to be my wedding day.. :p). so vampire diaries is about two brothers, stefan & damon salvatore whom are both vampires. stefan is the good bro, and damon is the evil bro. (but, i think, damon has some goodness in him.. and damon is kinda cute.. :P)

true blood

now this one is kinda my favorite show. got two seasons all 24 episodes. its about bill compton, who is a 150 years old vampires, who falls for a waitress, sookie. sookie is a telepath, and her ability is sought after by eric northman, the chief vampires of Area 5 (shreveport, lousiana). in vampire world (at least in true blood, a vampire can 'own' a human, and no other vampire can touch another human that belong to another vampire.) in this case, sookie belongs to bill compton.

but, eric northman wants sookie too. its hard to hate eric because eric is sooooo darn gorgeous. tall, blonde and broad shoulder (altho, blonde is not my type), eric is so darn good looking, compared to bill compton, who is short, darker, and so old fashion. seriously guys, if u are so bored at home, i suggest you watch true blood. i mean, whomever read this entry, i'll be glad to burn the series into DVD and send it off to ya. this is an offer i made because i just love true blood. haha.

twilight, new moon

ah.. what more to say about these two? edward n bella.... :P

so, meh layan youtube plak. muahahahaha


this one is from vampire diaries


this one from true blood


just for fun.. eric northman :P






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more expensive oil but cheaper cars?

From May 1, the fuel will be pegged at RM3.90 per litre for RON97, while RON95 will increase to RM3.70 per litre. However, the prices of national-made vehicles will be lowered by at least 40%. For example, a full-spec family sedan Proton Persona 1.6litre engine will cost around RM23k excluding road tax and insurance. ...Import tax and excise duty will be revised to only 30%, from the current 200%. Imported vehicles such as the new Toyota Camry 2.4litre engine will cost around RM65k", he said.

got that from Topeng PErak's FB.

Please Please Ya Allah.. make the above true. I really in need of a new car. My old ones are almost dying on me. Please.. Please ya Allah...

I know this is selfish. wishing for cheaper car. but what the heck. me need car so badly. so the oil price is hiking again. so the price of all goods are going to skyrocket again. so everything else is going to be far more expensive.

but.

the price of all goods are going to increase anyway. even if the price of national made cars are stagnant (means bloody expensive), the price of common goods are going to hike anyway. so at least, whilst the price of other goods are going to be much more expensive, its a good thing that the price of car is coming down.

i know.. i know.. not everybody is going to buy cars the moment the price is slashed to 50% and imported cars are slashed about 30%. i know, gov is trying to divert the issue of oil price hike, common goods price hike, the rest of the rakyat will have to bear the price increase even those who dont want and cant afford new car.

but give me a break. this is one good thing that i've been dying to hear since few months. i mean, i REALLY need new car ok. full stop. if that makes me selfish, please dont hesitate to call me so. haha. if the price of pesona is only 23K, i can almost afford a 2nd hand Hilux Toyota. the price of all 2ndhand cars are going to plummet. I really need big car. 4WD. I need to venture out in the pedalaman area. I cant do much businees with a car which dies on me eveytime I need to go out.

*sigh*

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>> Jumaat, Januari 15, 2010

i miss you.

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adrenaline rush

>> Sabtu, Januari 09, 2010

I was watching True Blood just now. And tetiba, my youngest sister meluru masuk rumah and bagitahu ada sorang lelaki tengah hisap gam kat luar. What the fudge? My sister tanya napa tak angkat hp, she called like many times because she was scared of entering as the man was just outside the door. Then my sister told me yg that man tgh lepak tepi my car. Hisap gam tepi my car.  Damn.All of a sudden I was so fudging angry. I nampak satu batang paip besi bersandar tepi tangga. Fine. Stupid drug addict wont leave, so its up to me to beat him good.

Armed with steel pipe, I went outside. Damn, the moron was sitting next to my car. I walked towards him and gripped the pipe hard. Looked him in the eye and put as much hatred as I can. If look can kill, he'd be dead by then. I lifted the pipe, pointed it straight at him..

"Keluar dari kawasan rumah ini sekarang juga.."

Haha. I havent even finished my sentence and he took off running. Scared shitless. Fudging moron. If he tried anything stupid, I'd beat his sorry ass to pulp. And I am not kidding. I've beaten people before, been in fights before and I am sure as hell gonna beat his ass if he had not leave our home. What an idiot. I hope he comes back so I can punch him right between the nose and give him a nice right hook up his rib.

I can still hear my heart beating so fast from the anger. The adrenaline rush. Lucky day for him. He wont be so lucky next time.

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true blood

>> Isnin, Januari 04, 2010


I am so hooked up on this show. Enchanted. Mesmerized. I like all supernatural stuff. Like Heroes, Merlin, Twilight, Supernatural, etc. True blood is the new addition to my collection. I downloaded all seasons for Heroes and Merlin. Got Twilight already (both), and I wanted to download SuperNatural since I missed all episodes but I guess, I'll just buy the DVD for Supernatural. And oh, Prison Break. Though theres nothing supernatural about Prison Break, but PB is one of the most intelligent tv series ever made.

Since me got no HBO, so I downloaded all 2 seasons of True Blood. To be honest, the plot is just okay. But I love the whole idea of everlasting something. Fancy that. Haha. Real life is so boring. Supernatural stuff is so cool..

Last weekend I watched The Last of The Mohicans. I've heard about this film quite a long time ago, but there was this person who always say stuff like "macam the las mohiken".. I have to watch it, then only I can talk about it. Hehe. So yeah, I watch it, its plot is straight as an arrow. But the filmography was good, stunts are what to be expected during the 90s. And as I recalled, during the 90s, I am so into epic films like BraveHeart, and DragonHeart. haha. Dragon Heart is another supernatural film.. :P

Im bored, so I think I'll sleep first. I hope Bill Compton come and bite me in my sleep.. Hehe.


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nur kasih revisited

>> Sabtu, Januari 02, 2010

baru terjumpa this piece of note masa kemas2 folder. written like a month ago.

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7:41 PM


Tuesday 8/12/2009



Guess what. Im watching Nur Kasih at Hotel Tabung Haji. Jane made me choose this place, and what the heck, I dont mind anywhere. As long as it got WIFI. Guess what. This place DONT have WIFI. I mean, what kind of hotel that doesnt have WIFI. Cheap one? No. Hotel Tabung Haji is much more expensive than the average hotel, but, you can guess. Why is that anything that has Islamic label to it, always left a lot to be desired?? I mean, come on la.. Malas nak ulas.



Anyway, Im not in the mood to go out. Im so tired. Really tired. I woke up around 6 this morning, feeling woozy and wobbly, packed an overnight bag since I have to pick up Jane at the airport and tomorrow, I have to go and pick another sister, Ekin, at her school since she already finished her SPM exam.So that means, I have to spend a night in KK. Like a short holiday. Haha. As if.After checking into our room, we went out for lunch. And Jane went for her usual groceries shopping which consists of food and food and food.. As usual, I tag along to humor her. Guys, when your pregant wife wanted to go for shopping, just tag along like a good puppy okay. Dont ask question.



Since Im tired but Im not really sleepy, so I thought I'd just type my entry in a notepad and upload it later. Pathetic. I know. And maybe I'll watch New Moon again for the 5th times. Haha..



Anyway, Im not really watching Nur Kasih. Just thought that it would be cool to have Nur Kasih on telly like the rest of the world. Seems like its a normal thing to do. Watch Nur Kasih on TV3. I am not going to bash or dissin' the drama. But like most Malay drama, it has too much 'drama' and I just cannot stomach drama that got too much 'drama' in it.



I dont really know whats Nur Kasih is all about. All I know is this Adam is married to Nur, Nur got a sister, Sarah, which looks like a gedik (but of course, a nice gedik who wears tudung), whom is lusting over Aidil, which is Adam's brother, who actually like Aliya. And yeah, you can guess the story revolves around the dilemma of husband and wife, sister and sister, this person like this person, but this person dont like that person, coz he like the other person. blablabla. I dont have anything against this type of drama. I just cant stand the plot which drags on and on and on about same thing over and over again. Its.. Lame.



*Sigh..*



But tonight episode, one thing does caught my attention. Its kinda sweet actually. Its that scene where Adam wrote an email to Nur, but Nur doesnt reply, then Adam looks upset. But then, it seems that its not like Nur doesnt wanna reply, its just that, she dunno what to say. But, she keeps waiting in silence for Adam's email. She keeps going into her inbox but Adam didnt send her any email because apparently, Nur didnt reply his. It got Adam thingking that maybe, Nur doesnt like email and stuff. Which is kinda sad but sweet.



I wanted to tell the director that, they should make it more dramatic. Since its drama which got too much drama in it, lets just go overboard with the whole dramatic thing. Like, dont just use email. Make Adam and Nur communicate using GoogleTalk. Its better right since both of them are using Gmail. Then they can show how sad Nur face looks when Adams button is not green and 'Available'. Or how Adam sigh heavily when Nur's button is not green too and she is no where 'Available'.



Next time, to make it even more dramatic and sweeter than sweet, the director should show at least one scene where both of them are 'Available'. Then Nur status shud be change to "Rindu Abg Adam sgt2".. or Adam status should be changed to something like "Nur.. Abg rindu Nur.." And to get all young people to watch more Nur Kasih, to get high ratings for the drama, they shud show how these two lovebirds communicate long distance by chatting and GTalking, since long distance relationship has been made easier via superb technology and aircrafts..



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On a happier note, What a crappy show. Nur Kasih is so crap. I mean, the only good character in the story was the 'gedik' sister of Nur. Now THAT my friend, represent the majority of those female population in Malaysia. They cover their hair, but inside, they are bunch of hypocrites. They think not twice of seducing a man. Ask me how do I know this? From personal experience. From the way these hair-covering type of female species who talk sweetly but has evil agenda beside all those sweetness. Poor male species. The other brain rules so much so that they failed to see these type of generic female for what they truly were. But kudos to whoever shot this film, the cinematography is good, better than the average drama. At least the cameraman bothered to shot at different angle. Lighting is good, it gives out the feeling of the drama.

Well yeah.. thats about it.


Hehe.

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fire in the hole~~~

>> Jumaat, Januari 01, 2010

selamat tahun baru masihi~~!!






kem 1: station 'first class' (sbb dapat main atas meja wpun duduk atas lantai)













2nd station- economy class (sbb kena duduk atas lantai). haha
untuk menjamin kelancaran tangan mengklik, tangan dan jari2 haruslah sering disapu losyen... ini juga untuk mengelakkan kulit dari kering dan merekah akibat bermain terlalu lama.. hihi








terrorist in action.. kitorang main network 5 orang.. ada 5 'mean machines'. of course, laptop den la yg paling power sbb baru beli. kah kah kah... (tp den la yg slalu mati awal.. haha)

























yg depan skali nih adik ipar den. dia tgh bg sokongan moral kat wife dia yg tgh boyot 6 bulan tp sebok nak join main cs. last2 terpaksa den bg can kat adik ipar den nih main kat laptop den jugak. sok2 anak dia lahir2 mintak beli ni.. ngeee...


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