chicken a'la carte

>> Khamis, April 30, 2009

saya minat bnyk filem melayu walaupun jalan cerita biasa-biasa saja. filem paloh, embun, bilut, bukit kepong, leftenan adnan etc.. walaupun org kutuk lighting tak power la, soundtrack lemah, skrip poyo, plot bosan, etc.. who cares. lebih baik dari filem bohsia, anak halal etc. pengarah atau produser filem bohsia, kalau saya jumpa tepi jalan, insyaAllah, saya akan tampar kedua belah pipi dia dan sagat mulut dia dengan selipar jepun saya warna hitam nih. itu janji saya. tp mungkin, susah la nak jumpa sebab negeri lain2. lgpun saya tak suka duduk di kolompo lebih dari tiga hari. mau muntah serta naik jerawat saya tinggal lama2. eh.. apa saya melalut nih.. haha... sila tgk filem pendek dibawah. sila tgk sampai habis. ingat.. "first impression doesnt always count.."

selamat berhibur..






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saiz otak melayu yang kecil menyebabkan melayu bangang? : satu kajian pendek (siri 2)

>> Selasa, April 28, 2009

Entry sebelum ini: Part 1 (klik sini)

sambungan kepada kajian pendek tentang otak melayu kecik pnyebab bangangnya ulama & seantero melayu berdasarkan teori genetik AdukaTaruna:

Quote dr AdukaTaruna:

"Jadi, teori harus ditumbangkan secara teori, dengan beberapa fakta yang ada sebagai sokongan kepada teori. Ini konsepnya. Bukan memutlakkan fakta kepada teori."


My answer:
this is even "funnier" than i ever imagine.. hi3 ..

"bukan memutlakkan fakta kepada teori.."
Maksudnya, kalau pun fakta itu mutlak terbukti, tetap jugak teori itu teguh berdiri?

*sigh..* i wouldnt even try to make an argument on dat. its just so....

Berkata lagi saudara AdukaTaruna:

"Walaupun ini teori, tetapi, teori harus ditumbangkan dengan teori berdasarkan fakta yang ada. Bukan memutlakkan fakta setakat fasa ni kepada teori."


Maka menjawablah saya sebagai panahan arjuna terakhir utk beliau.
My answer:


sbnrnya, den saja test2 c AT nih. AT nih mmg genius, tp, genius yg ego, mmg payah la.. intelligence vs wisdom, totally out. ahakz..

1. teori AT pasal SAIZ otak mencerminkan output kecerdikan nih, teori lama. Teori hampir 20tahun lalu. Org Ireland (ireland is one of the best medicine school in the world i think). bnyk dah org ckp pasal teori saiz otak nih. masa kami belajar psl DNA rekonstruksi dulu, dah ada bnyk journal ckp psl benda alah nih. about human gnome, sets of DNA, etc.. alkisahnya, teori saiz spt yg didakwa AT nih, teori lama.. cuba baca nih:

http://www.springerlink.com/content/p52132255763v102/

nih journal saintis ireland.. hampir 20 tahun lalu (terbit 1990) (jgn pakai saintis melayu la sbb kita nak cuba ikut kata AT, fokus pada saiz saja..). pendek kata, journal tu terbit tahun 1990, maksudnya, teori saiz nih, dah wujud lebih lama dr tahun 1990. sebenarnya inilah teori asal pasal otak...

2. 20 tahun sesudah itu.. banyak kajian saintis luar negeri berkisar tntang saiz otak nih jugak. pasal SAIZ otak.. outputnya?
sila rujuk..

http://health.howstuffworks.com/genius1.htm

dan bnyk lagi la.. (gugle sendiri, bnyk journal2 online skrg..) yang telahpun menyangkal teori asal mengenai BIGGER BRAIN means GREATER INTELLECT. coz, kecanggihan semakin hari semakin power, saintis mengkaji lebih terperinci tentang struktur otak.. mereka temui teori baru yang menyangkal teori lama. teori baru mengatakan

"Part of the brain (i.e: cerebral cortex) is the integral part in determining human intelligence.

Almaksudnya, spt yg sdr schizo ckp before nih, the size is IRRELEVANT. Saiz doesnt matter. You can have big brains, but if your cortex is small, you are as stupid as a person with small brains (so to speak..)

3. Brain evolves, BRAIN DOESNT CHANGE. nih konsep yang kita kena faham.. EVOLUTION of brain dictated by our surrounding, genetics etc.

4. Teori AT nih betul, tapi betulnya adalah 20-30 tahun lampau. Teori ni dah terbukti salah menerusi begitu bnyk fakta terkini. skrg nih, teori pasal saiz, org tak pakai dah.. sebab THEORY of BRAIN EVOLUTION is what brain is all about....

5. AT boleh mengaku, atau tidak mengaku, atau menggunakan taktik merendah2kan level pembangkang dia, tp kalau yang membaca nih, semua dah boleh tgk..

nih den tambah sikit lg.. dulu2 org kata otak besar orang pandai. sbb dulu2 mana ada kajian2 hebat ni semua.. org dulu2, main pakai lojik je la. lebih kurang mcm AT punya style, dia guna WYSWYG - what you see is what you get.

tp skrg, konsep WYSWYG tak boleh pakai la dlm bidang saintifik. bidang sains, prlukan lebih dari takat lojik lojik mcm tu.. teori pun, bukan bolh buat style main pakai buat jer.. org dulu2 boleh la berteori mcm2 sbb dulu2 org kekurangan bahan, kemudahan utk mengkaji..

(adeh.. im really wasting my time now..)

hihihi.. i hope this is my last entry.. (penat otak den nak berfikir dlm bhs GMP nih.. tulis PPSMI kang AT tak paham lak)

:)


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memory revisited #7 : first impression doesnt count



satu pagi sewaktu daku berumur 12thn..

pg tu, bz siap2 nak pegi majlis penyampaian hadiah, den dapat pelajar terbaik tahun 6. tgh2 daku bersiap, mak masuk bilik, bawak sehelai tudung.. tudung putih..

"nah.. pakai tudung nih, hari ni nak amik hadiah penting, cantik kalau pakai tudung...mak jahit semalam nih.."
"eeeeehhh.. org mana penah pakai.. tak nak la.. nanti kengkawan gelak.."
"pakai je la.. bukan susah sgt pun, mak tolong pakai kan.."
"eeeeeeehhhh.. takmo la... apasal plak kena pakai tudung.. ish apa mak nih..tetiba ja nak suh org pakai tudung plak.."
"ISH BUDAK NIH.. MAK KATA PAKAI, PAKAI JA LAAAA!!"

uwaaa.. apo mak nih, tetiba takda angin takde ribut nak suh org pakai tudung.. daku punya keras kpala pun buleh tahan. siap menangis2 takmo pakai..meraung beb.. dasar keras pala.. tetiba bapak masuk bilik..

"apahal plak nih nangis pagi2? nih apasal tak siap lagi? kata hari ni kena pegi awal?"
"ni haaa budak nih.. suruh pakai tudung tak nak. dah besar panjang pun degil sgt.."
"hmm.. biar lah kalau dia tak mau.. nanti besok lusa, dia pakai juga tu.. dah la.. jgn paksa2.."
"AWAK PUN SAMA JAH DGN ANAK AWAK NIH. ORG SURUH BENDA BAIK. BUKAN BENDA JAHAT. TAK NAK PAKAI SUDAH. MALAS SAYA NAK CKP LAGI."
"haa.. sudah.. jgn nangis2 lg. siap cepat. bapak tunggu dekat luar.."

beberapa minggu lepas tu, den dapat tawaran masuk sekolah asrama penuh tingkatan satu..

huwaa.. sbnrnya daku sumpah taknak masuk asrama. tp bapak yang sungguh2 nak hantar. sampai ati bapak anto daku jauh2. bapak tak sayang den ka.. den nih firstborn, sampai ati bapak buat cenggini kat eden.. brhari2 daku nangis, takmo makan, tanda protes.. tp bapak siap pegi shoping sendiri2 belikan den baju, mcm2 jenis baju bapak den belikan..t shirt putih, suar panjang itam, mcm2 la yg dlm senarai keperluan asrama tu.. mak plak sibuk jahit baju kurung..

malam tu, mak tolong packing sbb daku takmo sentuh pun beg. daku takmo pegi la.. bengkak2 mato den nangis takmo pegi.. masa mak tgh packing tu... daku ternampak sesuatu..

"mak!! napa mak packing banyak2 tudung nih?? sapa pulak yg nak pakai tudung nih?? orang tak pakai tudung laaaa!!" lagi kuat den nangis. dah la org taknak pegi, kena plak pakai tudung??
"alah.. blajar la pakai.. kat sana tu mesti ramai org pakai tudung, nanti malu kalau kamu sorang yang tak pakai.."
"napa mak ni suka sgt paksa org?? org kata tak nak tak nak laaaaaaaaa"
"nih apasal bising2 lg nih? ha kamu.. cuba kamu tgk muka kamu kat cermin. mcm ni ke muka kamu nak naik kapal terbang besok??" alamak.. bapak tercegat kat pintu..
"hmmm.. kalu dia taknak pakai.. toksah la packing tudung tu. nanti kalau dia nak, kita boleh kirim kmudian.. ha kamu.. pegi la cuci muka tu. kamu nangis banyak mana pun, besok kamu tetap mendaftar kat sekolah tu. pegi tido."
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hari pertama kat asrama.. pas mendaftar tu, bapak pun balik tinggalkan daku.. beberapa org pengawas tolong angkat barang2 naik gi dorm.. sampai kat dorm tu ada 7 org senior. daku sorang ja form one. semua nampak baik.. kitorang pun berkenal-kenalan.. kak jah, kak danny, kak andy, kak imah, kak sab, sis joy n sis yuen. diorang sepakat panggil den 'eve', ada sorang akak tu kata, panggil 'V' la.. ahakz.. ala2 V.E tu la.. hihi.. hari dah senja, nak maghrib dah.. den dah rasa lain mcm jah.. napa diorang wat tak tau je kat den nih.. masing2 sibuk nk gi surau..

kak jah tgh 'cuti'.. so dia sorang yg tolong den unpack barang. sambil2 tu, dia tanya latar belakang.. etc.. kami sama2 lipat kain masuk dlm locker. tetibe...

"V!! napa dlm beg kamu ada tafsir al-quran?? siap ada sejadah dan telekung??!!"
"what?? hey, why do you have those?? are you a muslim??" alamak, sis yuen plak nyampuk..
"V! kamu islam ke??" muka kak jah time tu serupa mcm terserempak bradpitt nek beskal..
"arr.. iya lah.. sy mmg islam.." terkulat2 daku nak menjawab.. budak kecik tak tau ape.. sian den..
"oh my god.. you are really a Muslim?? hahaha.. this is so funny. napa nama u nama kristian? n u tak nampak mcm melayu.. u convert is it? " sis joy gelak tak abis2.. haha..
"ya Allah.. V.. kenapa kamu senyap jah dr tadi.. nih masuk maghrib dah.. meh akak tunjuk toilet n surau.. " tak abis2 kak jah mengucap, istighfar.. sepanjang2 bawak den ke toilet n hantar g surau.. hihi..
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benda mcm tu biasa dah jadi kat daku. sampai den masuk uni pon my malay friends mesti akan terpinga2 tgk daku. napa nama u kristian? tp u pakai tudung? owh, u muallaf ke? etc etc blablabla.. i get used to it somehow.. bnyk funny stories happen to me. tuh blom masuk citer my sister. dia lagi dasyat, orang panggil dia 'Jane', short for Jennifer. imagine, masa jane nak masuk form one, bapak den anto dia gi KELANTAN. hihihi.. dia lg bnyk citer klakar dr den.. jennifer, tp muslim, bukan muallaf ye.. trkejut berok abe2 kelate kat sana.. sbb jane ni muka ada iras2 minah salleh. den ok lg, ada gak unsur2 melayu sket.. hihi..

one of my infamous motto in life.. "first impression doesnt always count". what i wrote in this blog, werent just words. it comes from years of experiences.. mungkin not enuff, i got more to learn, but basically, i try as best as i could with whatever i got.. at one point, there was even one 'makcik', thought that i ni ejen kristianisasi.. semoga ALlah ampunkan dosa buruk sangka dia..

its all based on what i've gone thru.. we can judge people, we can even make assumption..but..
for what its worth.. you are who you are..

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christian the lion..

>> Isnin, April 27, 2009


tak tahu la kalau korang dah penah tgk vid nih, tp daku baru tertonton vid kat blog marina mahathir selepas rewang2 kat blog pak bakaq.

moral of the story..lu pikey la sendiri :p





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intelligence vs wisdom : who am i, really.. WHO AM I?


awal2 pg den bukak blog brader xenan.

komen den kat entry dia:

"there is a borderline that define who you are and what you are supposed to be bearing time and situation. meaning, there is a differnce between having intelligent (being smart) and having wisdom (being wise)

have you ever wonder why sometimes you are reluctant to do something that you are really good at? its all (i think) its your intelligence and wisdom colliding.

being intelligent doesnt define who you are. its about being wise, having wisdom that defines who you really are. meaning, you can be smart as hell, you can have the greatest IQ in the world, but thats just about it. its a skill/ability that you just used. it does not define who you really are.. (darn.. td ayat den lg bagus dr nih.. tp terpadam lak)

take for example, you are required to answer the history exams, but bearing in mind, you are wise enuff to know those are not really the correct version of history. you are wise enuff to know the difference between right and wrong..

but because you are smart, you answer the xms. but in your heart, you are wise enuf to know thats a load of bulls-poop."
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i always wonder, does being smart really all there is to be? i have been pondering about this over quite some times. is being able to manipulate, ngotiate, giving speech, having an-over-the-top-IQ, excellent in everything you do, being successful, being rich, being pretty, being handsome, being the envy of the world can actually describe a person..?

does being intelligent really what we wanted to be? or, is it just a tool for us to achieve certain things in life? there has got to be more in the world than just getting everything you ever wanted right? but then.. if you already have all you ever wanted, what more could you ask? (now, im confusing myself.. hihi)

the answer is, yes, at least for me, being intelligent is only means to an end. being smart is really a tool to get what i wanted in life (there are loads of em). i can abused my intelligence to achieve goals in my life. is it not what most people do? they are smart, but they abused their intelligence. they are smart (read: politicians) but they abused their power to get what they wanted at the expense of others. they are smart (read: artists, singers, actors) but they abused their marriages for God knows what.

but being wise, having wisdom is different. you just somehow grow into it. you can learn how to be inteliigent, read the right books, thru creative thinking, honing those skills, learn new stuff, acquiring new abilities.. thats all about being intelligent.

but wisdom.. (this is what i thought, people may differ, its all about being wise :p )

wisdom is whats in your heart. you can feel it. its what define you as a person. as a human being. wisdom is earn thru experience, thru understanding, thru others experience, thru our eyes, thru perceptiveness.... thru intuitiveness.. and for me, the basis of wisdom is..

the submission to Allah. thats the basis for wisdom. fear of God..

being wise meaning having the good qualities that makes up a person, having those quality to leaad a good life, living whats in your heart. being wise means you control your intelligence, and not let being smart getting the best of you. its about having empathy and sympathy, able to swim your way thru pain, having the strength to experience losses, deaths, pains and still, being wise enuff to be thankful to God..being humble, being nice to others, and doing it not because you have to do it, but bcause, its part of you, its a natural thing to do.. its who you are..

being wise is far greater valuable than being merely smart. as for me, i have those skill to manipulate (i can even manipulate a d.o into giving me license..).. i am used to giving speeches in front of thousands people.. i have no problem of doing any of what people required me to do.. but, i think, i am wise enuff to know those are only skills and abilities that i have. its for me to use, not abuse. it doesnt define who i am.. i would prefer living a quiet life, but if needed, i can always use my skills and abilities to do other wise.. but of course, its not who i am..

its knowing who you are, knowing whats in your heart and let it be a natural thing to you, second in nature.. knowing where to draw the lines.. its about understanding the core of all things... having the light of wisdoms that shines you thru..



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saiz otak melayu yang kecil menyebabkan melayu bangang? : satu kajian pendek

>> Ahad, April 26, 2009



1. mission statement:
mencari correlation (hubungan) diantara saiz otak manusia dan kebolehan otak manusia dalam berfikir. i.e: adakah saiz otak melayu yang kecil menyebabkan bodohnya ulama-ulama dan seantero orang melayu di serata dunia (rujuk blog AdukaTaruna).

2. limitation (batasan kajian):
a. kajian/pemerhatian hanya akan berkisar seputar otak manusia dan perkara-perkara yang mewujudkan/membawa (INPUT) kepada kewujudan otak itu.

b. kajian/pemerhatian tidak akan menyentuh mahupun mengaitkan aspek kemajuan yang berwujud hasil dari penggunaan otak (iaitu OUTPUT dari penggunaan otak, contohnya kehebatan otak india, kehebatan otak amerika, kehebatan tamadun2 etc), sebaliknya, kajian hanya akan memberi fokus kepada kewujudan otak itu sendiri.

3. teori/formula yang digunapakai (testing formula):

A x B = C

dimana A = Kapasiti (saiz) otak dalam isipadu
B = peratus penggunaan otak (kapasiti/kepadatan) otak
C = Kadar OUTPUT kesan dari penggunaan otak

berdasarkan saiz dan kapasiti/kepadatan otak.

disclaimer: teori/formula yang digunapakai ini adalah tidak jitu (kesahihan tidak dapat dipastikan), ini kerana struktur otak yang terbahagi kepada beberapa lobes, contohnya, cerebral cortex yang mengawal pemikiran, adalah berbeza antara satu sama lain.
4. Penentuan variables/pembolehubah:
[pembolehubah adalah nilai variabel yang boleh diubah atau ditetapkan utk menjustifikasikan kaedah pengiraan atau penaakulan]

a. saiz otak - saiz otak yang berubah2 tidak hanya boleh dibandingkan dkalangan org eropah dan orang melayu, tetapi juga dikalangan sesama orang melayu dan sesama orang eropah. saiz otak ditentukan oleh genetik dan persekitaran. ie: orang melayu yang dilahirkan di eropah
kemungkinan memiliki otak yang bersaiz besar kerana persekitaran iklim, pemakanan, etc. manakala otak eropah, mungkin saja menjadi kecil jikabdia dilahirkan di malaysia atas alasan yang sama. boleh kerana sebab ini, maka saiz otak juga merupakan salah satu pembolehubah.

b. kapasiti/kepadatan otak - merujuk kepada kemampuan sel-sel otak bekerja dengan keras (i.e kapasiti otak itu untuk melaksanakan prosesbpemikiran dan penaakulan dgn pantas dan cemerlang, dgn itu, menyumbang kepada perkembangan sel-sel otak yang baru dalam isipadu yang tertentu). kapasiti/kepadatan otak ditentukan oleh persekitaran, genetik. contohnya: seorang yang malas, kapasiti otaknya akan kurang brbanding seorang yang rajin menggunakan otaknya. (kapasiti atau kepadatan otak ini sebnarnya mrujuk kepada kmampuan crebral cortex, tp for the sake of argument, kita akan mengandaikan bahawa sebiji otak itubsama ja lah semuanya, supaya kalian senang mencerna)

c. Kebijaksanaan - kebijaksanaan juga adalah satu nilai yang tidakbtetap, kerana ianya bergantung kepada dua pembolehubah yang telah dibentangkan sebelum ini.

5. Dapatan (secara lojika, tanpa fakta)

dengan merujuk kepada formula A x B = C, for the sake of argument, kita mengandaikan bahawa otak melayu berisipadu 1400cm3 dan otak org puteh 1500cm3. jika basis kajian menetapkan nilai ini dan ini akan menjadikan kapasiti otak sebagai pembolehubah dan kita akan dapati variasi dalam OUTPUT kebijaksanaan.

otak melayu 1400cm3 dan otak omputeh 1500cm3 adalah pemalar atau nilai tetap kerana sudah semestinya isipadu ini harus tetap berdasarkan faktor biologi melayu dan mat salleh secara general. (i.e mengambil isipadu secara purata berdasarkan etnik)

cth:
A. 1400 x 100% = 1400
1500 x 100% = 1500

B. 1400 x 90% = 1260
1500 x 80% = 1200

C. 1400 x 150% = ..........
1500 x 100% = ..........

D. 1400 x 100% = ...........
1500 x 150% = ...........

sekiranya seorang melayu dan seorang matsaleh bekrja bersungguh, dengan mudahnya kita mendapati bahawa matsaleh itu akan memberi output yang lebih tinggi.

namun, ini adalah lojika yang ideal, dimana, PEMBOLEH UBAH SEBENAR iaitu kapasiti otak adalah juga Pembolhubah dan variasi dari pelbagai pemboleh ubah yang lain. dengan menggunakan teori lojika diatas, dengan mudahnya kita akan mengesan juga bahawa WALAUPUN SAIZ Otak mat salh itu lebih besar, namun, jika berlaku kekangan dari sudut kapasiti, OUTPUT nya akan berkurang, berkadar terus dengan kapasiti otak mereka.

kesimpulan lojika : Saiz otak bukanlah penentu muktamad ataupun penyumbang muktamad kepada kebijaksanaan sesuatu etnik. Saiz otak bukanlah pemboleh ubah sebenar dalam menentukan kebijaksanaan sesuatu etnik. Dengan kata lain, Hujah bahawa Otak Melayu yang Kecik menyebabkan Ulama-ulama dan seantero melayu bangang adalah TERTOLAK sama sekali.


OPSSS. JANGAN BERHENTI MEMBACA. KAJIAN CARA LOJIKA DIATAS BUKANLAH METHODE KAJIAN YANG AKAN DIGUNAKAN OLEH PARA SAINTIS ATAU ENGINEER UNTUK MENYELESAIKAN SATU2 PERMASALAHAN BERKAITAN ILMU SAINS.KAEDAH SAINS MEMERLUKAN KITA BRHUJJAH DENGAN FAKTA, BUKAN LOJIKA. SILA TERUSKAN BACAAN ANDA.. (pls pls pls... sikittttttt je lg nih... hihi)

literature review (kajian kesusastera <-- betui ka nih)

1. Pls read : http://health.howstuffworks.com/genius1.htm

kalau anda malas baca, ni saya paste kan..
"A 2006 paper in the journal "Nature" theorized that the way the brain develops is more important than the size of the brain itself. A person's cerebral cortex gets thicker during childhood and thinner during adolescence. According to the study, the brains of children with higher IQs thickened faster than those of other children. Studies also suggest that, to some extent, children inherit intelligence from their parents. Some researchers theorize that this is because the physical structure of the brain can be an inherited trait. In addition, the process of becoming really good at something both requires and encourages your brain to wire itself to handle that particular task better."

maksud ringkas: cara perkembangan otak itu adlah lbih penting dari SAIZ otak itu sendiri. c.cortex akan menebal sewaktu rmaja, namun mnipis sewaktu dewasa. proses untuk menjadi hebat didalam sesuatu bidang, memerlukan latihan untuk meningkatkan kapasiti otak berhadapan dengan sesuatu tugas.

2. Read this pls.. pls pls plssss..... :p



A 2004 study at the University of California, Irvine found that the volume of gray matter in parts of the cerebral cortex had a greater impact on intelligence than the brain's total volume. The findings suggest that the physical attributes of many parts of the brain -- rather than a centralized "intelligence center" -- determine how smart a person is.

A 1999 analysis of Albert Einstein's brain also seems to support this theory. Einstein's brain was slightly smaller than the average brain. However, parts of his parietal lobe were wider than most people's brains. The larger areas in Einstein's brain are related to mathematics and spatial reasoning. Einstein's parietal lobe was also nearly missing a fissure found in most people's brains. Analysts theorized that the absence of the fissure meant that different regions of his brain could communicate better.

maksud ringkas. yang ini PALING PENTING (den teruja bangat nih..)

a. sebahagian isipadu didalam cerebral cortex mempunyai impak yang lbih kepada intelligence BEBANDING ISIPADU OTAK SECARA TOTAL. kajian itu mnunjukkan bahawa untuk menilai intelligent seseorang, bukanlah dari JISIM OTAK SECARA KESELURUHANNYA, tetapi KEUPAYAAN nisbah/bahagian2 tertntu dlm otak.

b. Otak Albert Einstein (kalau sapa2 tak tau einstein ni sapo, dia ni genius tahap cipan angkasa. E=mc^2 dia lah yg cipta. tau tak ni Formula apo? ni formula buat bom atom.. hihi)

ok.. dia kata, otak einstein LEBIH KECIK dari purata otak manusia. TETAPI, parietal lobe (bahagian yang menelaah matematik dan penaakualan spatial) lebih besar dari orang lain. dan bahagian ini pulak, jarang ada kat otak orang lain.

(ok stop nyle.. stop stop... dun get too excited :p )

KESIMPULAN.

1. JISIM/ISIPADU otak manusia secara total bukanlah indikator MUTLAK dalam menentukan daya penaakulan/berfikir seseorang apatah lagi untuk mngelaskan kepada etnik-etnik tertentu.

2. Bahagian2 tertentu dalam otak manusia mempunyai pranan yang berbagai. Dan saiz/nisbah pembahagian juga adalah tidak tepat untuk setiap manusia. Ada manusia seperti einstein, otak kecik, tp lobe lain besar. ada manusia, otak besar, tp bahagian c.cortex kecil, menyebabkan daya penaakulan menjadi sderhana, oleh itu OUTPUT juga adalah sederhana

3. Perkembangan JISIM otak itu sendiri, tidaklah dipengarugi oleh genetik semata2, ianya adalah sumbangan dari pelbagai variasi/pemboleh ubah yang amat brbagai-bagai.. Oleh yang dmikian, NOT ONE person ada otak yang sama, dan oleh kerana itu, meskipun JISIM otak mereka adalah sama, PERKMBANGAN OTAK adalah berbeza.

4.oleh kerana itu, sama juga seperti kaedah lojika sebelum ini, untuk mengatakan bahawa HUJAH Otak Kecik menyebabkan ulama-ulama kita dan seantero melayu adalah bangang adalah tertolak sama sekali.

JZK..

p/s: Allahua'lam bishawwab.. segala yang buruk datang dr kelemahan saya dan yang baik datangnya dari Allah..






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if you prick me, do i not bleed?

>> Sabtu, April 25, 2009

if you prick us, do we not bleed? if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?
[W. Shakespeare, Merchant of Venice]

i never been a fan of any 'nasheed love songs'. maybe its just me. ahakz.. but i do listen to raihan, rabbani, hijjaz. the rest? lets just say.. i dont even know what else is there.. hihi.. im a bit lost at the moment.. so y dun i share some secret pleasure of listening to an ol fashion love song composed to break even the stongest of heart.. except that this is the new rendition of the retro "nothing gonna change my love' by george benson. plus there's the german guy rapping god knows what he's on.. hihi.. who cares. he looks good enuff to sing :p

now.. close ur eyes.. n sing to ur heart content :)

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memory revisited #6: a toyota camry



smlm dekat kul 12.30am daku o9 jap, smbil tgk awani. ada berita pasal camry perak kena lelong. harga sbnr camry rupanya dalam rm180k. wow.. bloody expensive. tak sangka... it was dat expensive.. bcoz my friends and i have crashed one toyota camry during our one infamous road trip.. ha ha ha...
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it was during the semester break 2001 i. end of winter.nizam, ilmik, ayu and me were planning to have a week road trip accross south australia, starting from adelaide crossing over to eyre peninsular, all the way to ceduna and head back home along the streaky bay, down to port lincoln, cowell, all the way to whyalla and back to adelaide. mula2 ingat nak backpackers je, tp bila pikey balik, baik sewa keta. and get this, one of the cheapest car to rent is actually toyota
camry. its about 120dolar a day but we have to pay i think 140dolar bcoz all of us were under 21years old. kena byr insurance skali maksudnya.

STANDARD OPERATING PROCEDURES (SOP) bg road trip adalah bekalan makanan. haha.. beli ayam frozen, roti, kentang, instant coffe siap bwk periuk nasik. sumbat sumer dlm bonet. ops, jgn lupa bwk MAP lak.. he3 kami pun mulakan jalan dgn happynya.. wah.. kalu daku ingat balik, it was so fun! gambo daku tak tau berapa roll filem habis, nk upload kena scan plak.len kali la.masa tu miskin takde digicam lg. ada NIKON SLR jek. kui3. pegi outbacks, pegi gurun desert, pegi beaches, pegi bukit, pegi memancing, pegi mandi sungai, pegi zoo, pegi naik kapal laut, pegi tgk ikan paus, ha mcm2 lg la.. pegi tgk stone n rocks formation etc..

at each day km try to cover as many places n tourist point as possible. kalu dah dekat2 mlm, km akan cari motel atau chalet tempat bermalam la. awal2 pg km akan mula gerak ke tempat seterusnya. so fun! bila km halfway into our jurney, smpi kat ceduna, km gk kat meter,
pergh.. br halfway road trip ni dah 2000KM beb!! dasat woo.. after smpi ceduna, km terus naik ke nullarbor, the last checkpoint. after sightseeing, kami plan ikut jalan pantai to go home. guna jalan port lincoln highway sbb along the road ada bnyk tempat menarik.

it was supposed to be our last day on trip. hari tu nak balik dah. kami bngun awal, siap nk balik kampung halaman. ahaks. cuaca agak panas, me and ilmik tengah happy kat seat belakang nyanyi lg m nasir cam org giler smbil baca komik ujang! i remembered the last picture i saw before the car go off the road ialah muka maikel monyet dlm ujang tu..

at first, i heard nizam ckp kat ayu dia kata mata dia pedih, matahari terik pg tu. silau dia kata. so dia nak pasang clip-on kat spek dia. so i thot maybe dia tgh pasang la kot. tetiba ayu jerit.."nizaaaammmm keta kat depannn..." and somehow ayu tarik pusing stering tu dgn kuat, and the car just lost control.. i dun remember wat happen bcoz it was so fast. nizam always bawak 140-160 bcoz its a hiway and jarang ada keta lain lalu. i remember tergolek2 dlm keta and i thot.. ya Allah.. kami eksiden.. i dun remember anything after dat, but when i woke up, we are still in the camry. kami mcm tertido sekejap. n when i woke up, ilmik, ayu n nizam pun mcm baru terjaga.

it was unbelievable.. kami tercampak jatuh bukit. when i sedar tu, i tgk keliling.. oh my god.. ya allah.. apa jadi nih. nizam sibuk tanya lyn, ilmik ok tak kat belakang? luka tak? otak i mcm freeze kejap. i tak rasa sakit ape, oh my god, ilmik bleeding kat dahi. n i lak tekejut, ada scratch kat
tgn. i pegang kaki ilmik, she is in shock. tp takde injury lain. i pegang kaki sendiri, alhamdullillah. still intact. kami masih dlm keta, n i try to open the door, tak leh bukak. jam. atap keta pun dah remuk, pala kami dah terhimpit. so kami merangkak keluar dr keta... nizam tolong tarik kami keluar..

bila km keluar dr keta.. ya Allah.. tekejut km tgk keta tu. keta tu habis remuk ok..im not kidding. empat2 rim tu tercabut. rim toyota ok? ni bukan keta proton ke. the best car manuacturer in the world nih.. bumper, bonet semua terbongkang. cermin habis pecah. roof kemek semua.
sebijik toyota camry dah habis remuk.. n suddenly km dengar ada org menjerit..

"HEY YOU PEOPLE.. ARE YOU OK??!!"

sekali tgk, ada sorang mat salleh bediri tepi land rover nun kat atas dkt jalanraya. ek ellehh itu la keta yg nizam elak td.. dia pun turun dr bukit gi kat kitorang.

"you people survived!! oh my god!! i thought u people are dead already!
i was so scared to go down!! this is unbelieable!"

mat salleh tu mcm tak pecaya tgk kami bediri tepacak tepi keta tu..dia takut nk turun ingat kami dah mati semua..dia kata keta kami begolek 4 kali atas jalan raya, siap kuar percikan api lg, langgar tiang batu penanda jalan, pastu tercampak jatuh dr bukit tu setinggi dekat 10 meter n landed atas batu2 pastu menggelungsur atas batu sepanjang curam tu..jatuh atas pasir.. n dia lg terperanjat ayu langsung tak ada scratch kat badan dia. me n nizam ada scratch kat tgn, ilmik scratch kat dahi.. ilmik kata dia luka paling teruk sbb dia paling notti. haha...

km tak rasa sakit atau apa2.. masih in shock. mat salleh tu offer nk anto km pegi klinik. smpi kat klinik, trus call polis, nizam kena interview smbil km kena cek. doc tkut ada internal injury. perfect, takde ape2 except scratches. alhamdulillah.. thanks ya Allah.. camry tu kena tow balik adelaide. tp syukurlah km ambik insurans. justkena bayar denda aud1000. bagi empat 250aud la sorang. haha..

ptg tu, kami dah takde kenderaan nak balik. kamit erpaksa cari bas express. masa tu km kat Cowell.. tgk jam baru pukul 4pm. next bas to Whyalla is jam 10pm. dr Whyalla baru leh gi adelaide. kami pun duduk2 bawah pondok bas smbil borak2 pasal kejadian td. siap main daun terup lg.. sbb bosan naktunggu kul 10. korang leh bygkan tak, baru pas eksiden, leh gelak2 main pakau.. sbb kami masih in shock..

n suddenly ilmik nangis.. tetibe jer dia cam huwaaa hu hu.. huk alah.. dah bejam2 pas eksiden br dia nak nangis.. tak lama daku pon join sama nangis.. huwaaaaaaa... huwaaaa.. sedey woo.. nasib baik tak mati.. dah la tak grad lg, kawen pon tak lagi.. boifren pon tah ade ntah takde..
tgk2 mati eksiden kat negara orang.. uwaaaa... masa tu kat pondok bas tu baru kitorang nangis secara berjemaah.. ngan apek nizam skali sebak2 gitu.. sbb baru sedar betapa berharganya hidup ni..

Allah nk bg pengajaran kat kitorang, hidup ni bukan sekadar berseronok ja.. sbnrnya, b4 kami nak roadtrip tu, kak oja, mak usrah kami ada tanya kami, nak join pegi program tak. daku kata tak jadi la kak oja, kami ada program lain.. ha padan muka kami berempat... huhu..hari tu, daku dpt pengajaran berguna..

jgn sombong dgn kenikmatan dunia, sbb mati tu datang menjemput bila2 ja.. ajal dan maut ditangan tuhan, sbb itu, ingatlah dimana kedudukan kita setiap saat.. pas eksiden tu, daku janji nak jadi org yg lebih baik.. sbb takut mati tak sempat tobat..serius.. when you escape death,
it changes something within you..

but, it takes a camry to make us see that.. what a price to pay..

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kes kalimah 'Allah': mahkamah rujuk semula!

>> Jumaat, April 24, 2009

i was blog hopping in hope to find more clues at whats going on with the 30% bumis equity that najib forfeited under the impression of more economic liberalisation. blablabla.. waste my saliva only.

but guess what attracts me more!


selepas setahun kes nih, akhirnya Gereja Archibishop dapat peluang untuk review akan hal menghalang penggunaan kalimah "Allah' keatas agama lain, in this case Kristian je la kot. Lets have a read:

1. http://www.themalaysianinsider.com.my/index.php/malaysia/24379-church-wins-right-to-challenge-allah-ban

ramai org membantah keras (read: orang melayu muslim totok) penggunaan kalimah Allah, tpai tok guru kita yg tersayang pun kata org kristian buleh guna kalimah Allah. baca sini

2. http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/index.php/malaysia/19429-allah-is-allowed-for-non-muslims-says-nik-aziz

personally, i dont think the kalimah 'Allah' is specific for the Muslim. even the bible that was in our house has got the word Allah written in it. but obviously, it does not refer to the same Allah as what the muslim perceived. there is a line that divide our perception with others by-definition.

however, in line with the current perception and weakness of the mind of the majority muslim malays (melayu muslim totok) i feel, it is only right that the ban should not be lifted. in case the 'illiterate' malay muslim confused church and mosque. because both House of God has got Allah written at their gates.

"sigh..."



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snippets on my thoughts


1. few months back, ada sorang member datang and asked me to go to 'jabatan pertanian' sbb dia kata, gomen tgh bagi free RM10,000 utk beli equipment bisnes. and first thing that comes into my mind, how on earth the gomen come up with such a plan to give away rm10,000 (bukan loan, ni free money) masa tgh economic recession? the WORST economic recession lg. and i already suspected something doesnt seem right. and i do some digging.

surprise surprise! AT lak email and bg tau MIDA ada bg loan. utk mereka yg layak, up to a million ringgit. and i thought, what the heck..!! this is getting weird. i want to write more, but later. i keep asking, dr mana gomen dpt all these money? we are spending money that we dont have!

2. another friend datang lg n bg tau, "sekarang nih la bagus buat loan, buat je apa jenis loan, bank akan approved beb. aku baru je amik RM20,000 utk renovate umah. ko beli la keta baru, aku dgr anak jiran sebelah aku siap loan beli rumah lagi". and i thought, what the heck is going on? bukan ke tgh recession? how come the money datang mencurah2? and why is the bank encouraging us to spend more!!" darn.. something is definitely not right.

3. then, comes najib announcement of the 60billion fund injection. and i thought, i dont have to be a financial analyst, but that has got to be the most idiotic approach to an economic recession that ever devised by a human being. its throwing good money after the other so to speak. its bailing out nonetheless. what are u injecting the money for? to increase economic growth? its the global endemic la idiot. if we are spending the money we dont have, u will DEFINITELY create inflation, and while you live happily ever after, its OUR CHILDREN who is going to suffer. stupid old git.

4. and here comes the gooooooddddd part! whaaalllaaaaaaaaaaa.. 30% cut on bumis equity. i just love this country. ha ha ha.. i really want to write more but i have some reading to go thru.. *sigh..*

i need to research bout some psychology among kids in classroom blablabla.. and my thesis on english art literature pun tak start research lg. plus, my handphone dealer from China lak hantar stok yg salah. smlm pegi pejabat daerah, nak mintak tandatangan D.O pun mcm nak mintak tandatangan YB. asik meeting meeting.. today couldnt get any worse.. "sigh.."

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memory revisited #5: palestinian asylum seekers

>> Khamis, April 23, 2009



masuk tahun 2009 ni, dah hampir 8 tahun daku tak menjamah KFC. ataupun McD, ataupun apa jua jenama makanan fast food dr US. jenama nestle dan jenama2 lain tu, ada yang daku lambat sikit dapat info. insyaAllah, smg Allah bg daku kekuatan nak boikot produk laknatullah nih.
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one night in a bloody cold winter, 2002.

tgh2 malam, henfon daku bunyi. aik. sapo lak nih.
tgk skrin, nama Bro. Imran terpampang. Bro Imran nih one of the Muslim student leader in campus. dia nih mmg rakyat Aust, mak ayah dia org mesia tp menetap kat aus.

"assalamualaykum sister. sorry to wake you up. but we need you and your friends to come over and help us out"

"walaykum salam brother. whats the hurry? are u ok?"

"everything is good, but we need people to help few brothers and sisters, they just arrived from palestine, the marine held them, but we need to get there and bring supplies to them. can you help us?"

"of course brother. count us in. i'll get my friends there"
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i called up few friends. tgh2 malam tu, kami menjelajah kesemua rumah2 budak malaysia, ambil baju2, sweater, selimut, blanket, makanan, sabun, apa2 sahaja yang sudi didermakan. keta nizam mcm nak senget dah.

sampai kat refugees center, tgk bro. imran tgh cakap something dengan marine officer. barang2 yg kami nak bagi tu, kena check dulu. you see, the refugees or asylum seekers are people that leave their country to seek for protection in other country. malam tu, ada 15 orang palestine naik bot dan mendarat kat pantai aust. diorang datang sehelai sepinggang, tak bawak apa2 pun. lelaki ada 4 orang ja, yang lain tu perempuan dan kanak-kanak.diorang kena tahan dulu, 'mandatory detention' before diorang akan diberikan visa utk tinggal di australia. itu pun setelah latar belakang mereka diperiksa, medical check up, etc.

mula2 kami tak dibenarkan dekat dgn refugees tu. after a while, baru officer tu bg kami masuk dan serahkan barang2. it was so sad ok... the women tu baya2 mak daku.. budak remaja perempuan ada 2 orang, dan ada sorang bayi agak2 baru 2 bulan.. bila diorang nampak ja kami, diorang terus meluru dan peluk kami.. :(

ada sorang makcik nih peluk daku sambil menangis.. "masha allah sister.. masha allah sister.. thank you thank you.. my son.. my son.." daku giler sebak.. hancur rasa hati tgk keadaan diorang. dia bg tgk baby dia, daku amik n dukung.. it just break my heart.. :( baby dia lemah semacam, badan dia panas sgt, hujung jari kaki, hujung jari tangan baby tu biru2. mana tak biru, tgh winter, belayar berhari2 atas bot. daku amik baby tu, trus bg tgk bro. imran. makcik tu plak terkejar2, aiseh, dia ingat aku nk bawak lari baby dia kot. haiya..

officer tu pun baru tehegeh nk panggil doktor. bcoz refugees tak leh tinggalkan detention center selagi protokol immigration blom selesai. daku tgk keadaan diorang sgtlah menyedihkan. sehelai sepinggang beb.. makcik2 ni semua tere english. rupanya diorang ni masa kat palestine org kaya. suami semua keja engineer, doctor. sbb takut akan ancaman israel, sbb tu diorang tinggalkan palestin.. dan daku terfikir, kalau golongan yang kaya pun jadi mcm ni, apa lah nasib mereka yang tak mampu meninggalkan bumi palestine, mereka yang miskin2..
:(
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sbnrnya, ada bnyk kes asylum seekers mendarat kat pantai aus masa daku masih kat sana. i have seen with my own eyes the pain that they have to bear leaving their country behind. i heard stories of death and stories of losing their loved one. from then on, i have this uncontrollable hatred towards the laknatullah pairs. kalau daku terjumpa sekor askar yahudi malam tu, mau daku bunuh on the spot. thats how much i hate the israel.

and i also remembered, how hard the malays (pelajar melayu) bersengkang mata, tak tido malam, sana sini buat aktiviti utk kutip derma bagi kat refugees. jual nasi lemak, jual sate kat kampus to raise fund. and i also remember, how the 'anak-anak menteri and golongan elite' senang2 je dpt 10ribu dari kelab UMNO bila nak buat majlis makan2. Merdeka Dinner my tuckus la... pegi mampus la lu orang. anak-anak keturunan dari mak bapak smpi ke cucu cicit makan duit haram! grrrrrrr.....


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great minds think alike : the art of negotiations

>> Rabu, April 22, 2009


kat blog AT pun dah ckp pasal nih. Ada kat BHarian online. ingatkan AT wat lawak lg tadi. rupanya betol. kui3. fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me...

try klik : http://www.bharian.com.my/Wednesday/Mutakhir/20090422164852/Article/index_html

AT pernah berkempen suh boikot Penanti. n i thot, isnt one of the most idiotic thing to do at the sooooooooo inconvenient and chaotic times like this? hihi. i already said that politician is like an open text book. setiap gerak geri dia kita boleh agak. because all of them one the same old thing. power. in anwar case, its the same thing that he wants. power and lots of power. so how do we calculate their next move? kalo prinsip fbi (federal bureau of investigation), dia akan kata "follow the money". in anwar case, "follow the source of power"

in one of my comments, i already pointed out some of the key points in negotation.
try klik: http://evnyle.blogspot.com/2009/04/untitled.html#comments

ok. nih citer serius sket. takmo gelak2 yer. the art of negotiations ;

the art of negotiations:

#1 "if u cant give them what they want, give them something u dont mind losing"

#2 "meanwhile (sambil2 tu), keep them waiting"

#3 "if they had waited long enough, let them down."

#4 "after that, give them something else to wait for"

#5 "if they are soooo stupid and they actually wait and DO NOTHING, go back to step no #2 and follow thru."

#6 "if they are smart and they actually DO SOMETHING, go to step #1 and follow thru."

#7 "repeat the cycle anytime and as many time as you wish"

aha.. jgn cari kat mana2. art of negotiation is mine alone. you see, ni lah typical politicians punya cara memperdaya, mengeksploitasi, mengecewaan rakyat! letak lah apa jua situasi, inilah cara mereka meng'auta'kan penyokong dan sekalian rakyat.

atas sebab2 ini jugalah, atas sbb taktikal ini jugalah saya membantah keras taktikal GMP!! haiya.. i dunno siapa yang jadi perancang kepada GMP but i can about guarantee you that GMP will produce nothing. ok lah.. perhaps the gomen will give something, tp, jgn terlalu mengharap.

barisan rakyat(rakyat, bukan Pakatan Rakyat) kena bijak. we have to break the cycle. maksudnya, bila kita meminta sesuatu dari ahli politik (pembangkang mcm anwar atau drpd gomen) kena tahu selok belok 'tawar-menawar'. the art of negotiation to get what we want! ask something that you can actually get! jgn mintak melulu!

contoh: permintaan menghapuskan ISA adalah permintaan melulu. siap buat GMI. haiyaaa!! ISA ni adalah satu akta legal perundangan. cuba lu olang pikey. ada bnyk lg akta lain yg menyekat kebebasan kita di malaysia. kenapa lu olang terus2 pegi serang ISA? secara falsafahnya, memang patut. tapi taktikal nya, kena step by step. start dgn akta2 draconian laws yg keci2 mcm OSA, PPPA, Seditious Act, etc. fokus satu2. jgn gelojoh dlm permintaan. try buat mcm demo BERSIH hari tu. kan cantik tu!

sbb itu lah, smpi sekarang, gomen masih gelak2 tgk cara rakyat tawar-menawar dgn kerajaan. bg gomen, rakyat ni menyalak ntah ape2 je. sbb sekor sana menyalak pasal ni, sekor sini menyalak pasal menda lain plak. haiyaaaaaa.. n pemimpin pembangkang plak lebih kurang 2 x 5 sama dgn rakyat punya pintar dalam menyusun strategi.

sbb itu, jgn marah kalau gomen pandang sebelah mata ja dgn demo2 ni semua. sbb diorang akan biar ja kita tertunggu2 sampai kucing bertanduk. because fokus kita yang terpecah. takdak strategi. out out out!

sbb ape? manusia ni jarang ada yang betul2 ikhlas dlm perjuangan dia. yg golongan bawahan mcm kita ni ja la kot. semakin tinggi level, semakin kurang taraf ikhlas nya. org2 yg ada pangkat, depa ada kepentingan masing2. kesian kat budak2 kecik yang kononnya hendak dibantu kefahaman sains dan matematiknya. piiiraaaaaahhhhh!!! cuba lu orang baca MEMORANDUM GMP. baca balik bagus2. baca secara microscopic. dasar kepentingan pelajar2 itu sendiri, dia letak prioriti no berapa?? even memorandum tu pon giler serabut! haiya.. out out out!!

cukup menyampah den nak tulis pasal nih. lu olang pikey la sendiri. daku sensitip sket pasal GMP nih. hahaha...

cuba tgk betapa liciknya anwar. taktikal dia, follow step by step the art of negotations yang dah saya bg kat atas. dia senyap ja mula2.. sbb dia kan thinker. agak2 bila dah semakin terdesar, imej PKR hampir calar, dia pun ok la... nak sgt aku mengaku salah? ok. aku minta maaf. tapi kat lim guan eng jek.. kui3... soalnya sekarang, what is his next move?

great minds think alike kan?

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think unconventionally!



dari jaman2 dulu, ustaz wa slalu marah wa. wa pun tak tau ape salah wa. bila time ada program je, asal wa bukak mulut je, wa kena suruh diam. apo salah daku? daku cuma suka bertanya.. sbb daku ni suka berfikir diluar bulatan.. (dulu ustaz suka lukis bulatan, bulatan islam, bulatan bukan islam) jd, bila daku mengeluarkan soalan-soalan yg berada diluar bulatan, maka ustaz kata

"udah2 la tu lyn, tgk je dlm kitab tu. bukan itu yang kita persoalkan".

oleh kerana itu, soalan daku tak pernah dijawab. mungkin jg kerana ustaz tu dah malas nk layan persoalan2 daku yg mencabar kredibiliti mereka2 itu. hua hua hua... lgpun, kalau ada program, daku selalu pelik, the gurls semua diam2 je. kalo nak bertanya kat ustaz, diorang tulis atas kertas. pastuh pas kertas tu kehadapan. pastu br ustaz tu baca soalan dr kertas tu. huk alah, sgt la tak efisyen. kenapa kena tulis atas kertas? kenapa budak lelaki boleh je ckp direct?

daku bukan lah seorang feminisme. juga tidak memperjuangkan hak sama rata. dalam islam, takdok yg dibilang konsep sama rata. yang ada cuma konsep keadilan. cuma, daku mementingkan praktikaliti. something dat escapes so many ppl. contohnya, apo praktikal nya daku nk pakai baju kurung atau skirt, sekiranya daku bleh pakai suar jeans dan bergerak dgn lebih mudah? jeng3.. mau kena fireball stetmen daku nih. tp tak kesah la, pakai je la apo pun janji tutup aurat, betul tak?

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daku ni suka membaca. memang kegemaran daku nih membaca buku yang tak sepatutnya. ustaz suruh bc muntalaq, daku pi baca 'jaringan islam liberal'. ustaz suh baca buku 'empat istilah', daku pi baca koleksi tulisan2 farish noor. ustaz suh baca tafsir syed qutb, aku lak tanya, napa kena baca tafsir syed qutb? tafsir ibn kathir tak leh ke? hi3.. kalu daku lelaki, mmg dah kene sekeh batang leher daku ngan ustaz tu. ustaz kata, membina individu muslim ni, harus step by step. (bila ustaz kata step by step plak, daku terbayang new kids on the block, step by step.. oooh baby.. gonna get to u gurl....)

hihi.. no wonder la ustaz slalu hangin ngan daku. tp, takpe.. semua yg ustaz ajar, tersemat dlm memory daku. misi 100 tahun menuju khalifah, semua masih daku ingat. btul ni.. tak tipu.. wpun daku suka memain dlm kelas, sbnrnya, itu cuma helah supaya daku tak tido.. hua3.. cumanya, i always thougth that, we need to 'revolutionized'. matlamat yang satu, tp kaedah nya mungkin harus di perkemas.

the problem with the majority of muslim community here in Malaysia is their inability of seeing the world as it is and they'd rather seeing the world as a perfect picure of what they thought the world should be. now, when you fail to see the world as it is, and seeing the world from the other side of the mirror, no matter how big is ur matlamat ummah, you are bound to take the wrong turn. i have always said this to my friend. stop looking from dat view, come down here, join me, and see the world as it is!

think unconventionally. think outside the box/circle/cube/cuboid. first impression doesnt always count!






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roslin hashim diarah bersumpah


saye ni cukup malas nk baca utusan.. bila ada mood je. sama jugak la paper harakah ke, paper pkr ke, paper2 semua ni mmg daku tak berapa layan sgt. keh3.. yg daku layan, cuma yg ada dlm blog list ku itu. hua hua hua. kutuk la jgn tak kutuk.

slalu kalau ada link utusan kat blog AT, maleh daku nk klik. tp tadi daku pelik sbb tetiba dia kata najib gi geneva? persidangan pbb anti perkauman. takkan la najib berani nk bersuara. sbb baru smlm daku tgk awani psl persidangan pbb tu. dia kato ahmad neejad. bila masa lak najib? takdok karakter pon. nih dlm firasat daku, AT nak wat lawak bangang lg la ni. daku pon klik je la utusan tu. haha. dah kata dah..

tp tak baca pon link tu. daku tertarik akan citer roslin hashim. baca disini.

pelik tul la. tak sampai 2 minggu dah cerai? apo problemo nya? tak serasi? naudzubillah. dah tu yg gi kawin apesal? nih daku sungguh pelik. sapo2 ada citer dibelakang tabir, meh kungsi2 ngan daku. sbb daku tak layan sgt citer2 artis nih. nih lg daku super pelik. roslin kata, dlm dua minggu dia dah nikah tu, takdok hubungan kelamin.siap berani bersumpah tu... haiya.. nih sah ada problem nih. roslin hashim gay ke? ahakz... sbb cuba lu olang pikey elok2.. serasi ke tak, at least mesti la ada..

ex wife dia tak cun ke? maleh nk gugel ex wife org nih. tp pada firasat daku, mesti la lawa. takkan org glemer nak kawin ngan awek x cun. pusing2, daku rasa la, roslin nih samada kene paksa kawin (i.e diperdaya utk kawin) atau pun.. pd malam pertama, br dia sedar, dia nih gay rupanya..

kui3... eh btw, yg kat atas tu buukan roslin hashim yer. tu hafiz hashim. saja letak gambo hafiz hashim. sbb dia ensem lg dr roslin. hihi.. ske ati aku la.. ni blog daku. tak puas ati, wat blog sendiri aaa...

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memory revisited #4

>> Selasa, April 21, 2009


a fren told me, he likes the fact that im enjoying my life. he's probably amazed that i enjoy my life, be it when its easy, be it when its tough. because he's the few people in this world, that actually 'know' me. so i told him, it was nothing really. when u get to be me, u get thru a horrible moment with everything u got.

there were days, back at those moments, when i just couldnt wake up and face the day. there were nights, when i pray, ya Allah, just help me to sleep, its all i want..take everything. my job, my friends, my love.. everything.. take it.. but please.. just let me sleep.. give me nightmares, anything. but please ya Allah, let me sleep.. its all i asked from You..

when u come to a point when all you asked from God was just a sleep even with nightmares thrown in, you know you had hit the "jackpot of all miseries". when you had to cry to sleep, there would be not so much left to do besides hoping to stay alive, to just breath for another day.. even if it meant, living for nothing..

somehow, i get thru. but with it, come a price so high.. ur life become a secret. u shutdown part of ur life, to protect urself, and ppl close to you... u learn to live a lonely life. u learn to distance urself, u learn to love, from afar.. i am probably the loneliest person on planet earth, if not the whole universe.. ahaks.. so much the better.. :)

the good thing is, you learn to live again, to love and to trust. however, life is not that easy. there will always be a catch. just when u thought life gets better, it hits you right back where it hurts the most. sometimes, i just couldnt believe it at times. i keep asking why. why and why? ya Allah... but then i thought, all these times, i asked the wrong question.

what i should been asking is not why. but HOW. HOW do i get thru this again? i learnt that, when people throw shit at you, you just had to pick up a glove, wear it, pick the shit, and turn it into fertilizer. if they throw another shit, you just had to pick up the shit again, and turn it again into fertilizer. its hard.. its even harder when all the shits arent yours.. ahakz.. :)

but there u go.. u learn to be 'numb'. feel the pain, and watch it healed.. feel the love, and watch it slipped.. feel the memory, and learn to live with it..

a memory is a memory. not one person can take it away.. a gift of memorizing is still a gift, even when remembering is such a curse..

:)




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munajat cinta

bila tgh down, i always love listening to songs that are comforting to me. my comfort songs, really... there are a few.. n this is one of em.. happy listening :)






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tujuh unsur cinta



7UC

air..
jangan terlalu deras,
nanti aku hanyut,
aku belum puas,
meneguk madu dari tasikmu,
tolong alirkan rasa ini,
biar bebas dilautan sana.

pasir..
butiranmu tidak terkira,
tolong kisahkan lara ini,
tapi jangan sampai dia nampak,
kau yang ku genggam,
terungkai lewat jemariku.

gunung..
kau kalah,
biarpun tinggi mana bukitmu,
cintaku padaNya dan padanya,
lebih tinggi dari bonggolmu.

awan..
tolong iringi aku,
bersama takdirku pulang padanya,
aku tidah betah tinggal disini,
aku ingin lari,
bersama tompokmu ke langit tinggi,
dimana aku tidak lagi disakiti.

tanah..
aku jadi dari kamu, bakal kembali pada kamu,
kamu lebih tahu,
bahawa sedalam mana dirimu,
yang ku 'ada' lebih dalam.

angin..
minta pada bayumu,
titipkan padanya aku rindu,
hanya kau yang tahu,
setiap hela nafas ini,
ada namaNya dan namanya..
kerna lidahku kelu,
tidak bisa berkisah saat itu.

bulan!!
hampir aku terlupa padamu kerna sang rawan,
boleh tolong ndak?
tolong limpahkan cahayamu padanya,
kacakan diriku lewat sinarmu,
saat dia melihatmu,
saat aku melihatmu,

satu detik..
"saya senang melihat dirimu, dan melihat diriku terkaca didalamnya"

efansuri
Rose Park,
11 september 2004,
Australia.

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brader lelaki_ini yang kacak punya komen

>> Isnin, April 20, 2009


nih daku kuot brader lelaki_ini punya komen yg panjang lebar:

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"u can lose some of the battles, but u have to win the war".

Haha. Tengkiu tengkiu. Based on above quote, den dah dapek bezo makno battle & war.

Dlm 1 war, ado byk battle. Ala ilmu peperangan gak ni, den expert bab ni, hehe.

WAR :
Perang Russia-Afghanistan 1979-1989

BATTLE :
> P'tempuran Russia-Mujahidin A di p'gunungan Kabul 5.3.79
> P'tempuran Russia-Mujahidin B di Mazar e-Sharif 31.9.82
> P'tempuran Russia-Mujahidin C di bla bla bla.

Result :
Russia menang 2 BATTLE.
Mujahidin menang 17 BATTLE.
So Mujahidin menang WAR tuh.

War ialah tajuk besar/keseluruhan perang. Battle ialah perang kecil/t'kandung dlm keseluruhan perang.

Adaptasi dlm hidup. Bg dak skolah, ujian bulanan adalah battle, SPM adalah war.

Bg kita, dunia adalah medannya. Life journey is the battle. Kematian ialah garis penamat b'akhirnya war tuh. Pengakhiran yg baik adalah kejayaan dlm peperangan yg dimaksudkan.

Tu yg den paham la :-)
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bagi sy lah, life is an on-going war, where at times, enemy waged battles against us..
ahakz..

:)

p/s: haha.. kompom kakmot hangin nih.. hihi..


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the art of scoring a job (or perhaps, the art of manipulation)


my last memory revisited #3 prompted me to share this. a prominent malaysian company came to our college and asked to interview all of us. the chosen ones. we havent graduated yet, and it wasd in the middle of our final year exam. i still got two exam papers the next day and still have to prepare for the interview. it was crazy. i didnt sleep because i need to study n the interview was giving me butterfly in my stomach. because the rumours had it that the panel of interviewers were bunch of Vice Chairmans that are known to be ruthless. but i expect nothing less. they had to be ruthless otherwise, they wont be the VC now wud they?

here are some of the tips, which is based on my experiences.

1. try to dress nice n simple, wear something that shows character. i dun want to sound rude or biased or anything, but this is my advice for the gurls. try to avoid wearing baju kurung to an interview session. this is specially true if u r applying for a technical position, ie engineering. but if u r going to be a financial analyst, or economist, or teachers, or secretary, u may consider wearing baju kurung. but still, i strongly advice u aganst it. its nothing personal. its all about the tactics.

2. if its a structural interview, they may have u answering q's about ur personality type. NEVER TRY TO CHEAT. NEVER!. dun go answering questions to show that u r driven, u r motivated. NEVER. answer the personality q's as honest as possible. it doesnt matter. but if u cheat, they will know. the personality test was mainly designed to check for personality disorder. if u cheat, THEY WILL KNOW. trust me on this. u might as well be known as the quiet type rather than the socially-unstable-aka-mentally-retarded person. hihihi.. that was funny :p

3. keep a straight face. keep the poker face. leave ur emotion outside the room. i ingat masa i nak masuk bilik interview, i said to myself "ok, this is it. im going in empty". maksudnya, dun feel anything. focus. REALLY FOCUS. its a war, not a battle. U CANNOT LOSE THIS WAR. keep that in mind. be ready to fight, but dont let the enemy know u r striking. keep smiling, poker face!.

4. there might be questions that wil surprise you. remember, be calm. they will try to break u, tanya u soalan yg akan merendah2kan ur level, try to attack u emotionally and intelectually. i ingat, one of the panel asked me this:
"well, we are looking for a bright person, but i can see from ur transcript, you had failed statics two times. FAILED A SUBJECT TWO TIMES??!! what makes u think u deserve to join us? this company doesnt need a loser like you".
AHAAA!! how do u answer that humiliating q's? giler memalukan punya soalan. even the other interviewers were shocked. i was soooooo shocked. but remember. poker face. shows nothing on ur face. i just smiled. smile sweetly as i can. altho, i was panicking inside. i cannot feel my legs. even lidah pun terkelu. kuang hajo punya org tua. hihi..

so i said.. " i might have failed two times, but i succeed the third time. failed a subject? it was nothing really, in fact, i had three more semester to master the subject. and now, i am an expert in statics for having studied it three times. if u want, i can teach u some of the things that i learnt in statics.."

hahaha.. i remembered them laughing so hard. i wasnt laughing ok. poker face, remember? i just sat there, looking comfortable, tp dlm hati, i was so scared. i thought, i shud not have said that. but they thought it was funny. hihi.. the thing is, u gotta show them that u r composed. u r able to handle pressure. u r prepared for anything. thats what they wanted to know whether u got it or not. if u can get thru that, than u wud be fine.

5. you wud be drilled till they thought u cannot handle it. i was asked whether i wud be able to jump from a bridge, whether i wud be able to marry n have kids, which one is important, family or career, they will ask you all sorts of things tat will caught u by surprise. but remember. poker face. doesnt matter how much u want to scream and say "ushut up u stupid old git", but remember, BE CALM. jgn lose control or lose ur temper.

and remember one more thing, if they asked you to choose, for example, which one is more important, career or family. or maybe they will ask you, wud u prefer working in malaysia or abroad. when presented with these kind of q's, quickly transform urself to be THE POLITICIAN. maksudnya, answer them back in riddles. berteka-teki dgn mereka. dun give a straight answer. IT IS A TRAP!! NI SOALAN PERANGKAP!! if u choose one, they will never stop bullying u!

kenapa i ckp mcm nih? because if u r smart, it was never about the choices u have to make. its about, fitting the choices to suit ur need. remember that. the average IQ person will struggle to choose and justify their choice,however, smart people with over-the-top-IQ will manipulate the choices and justify their manipulation techniques. ahaa.. hihihi.. the thing is, be calm, be reasonable, be smart.. :)

one more last thing to note. for example, if u r an engineering student, they will sometimes ask you to describe the process of building something, such as, explain to me how do u extract oil from the sea. it is important to remember this. dont answer them based on ur technical knowledge. the purpose why they asked you is not to judge ur technical knowledge. it is to know ur potential.

the whole purpose of an interview is to know the limit and ur potential, and how far wud u go given the opportunity to work with them.

give them an insight to show them u know the technical skills, but dont stop there. show them u are a leader. this is the most important thing. VERY IMPORTANT. talk as if you are the CEO of the company. talk about the future of the company if they go on with the project. relate the whole situation with how much MONEY the project wud be able to generate. talk about how the whole project will benefit the country and how will it contribute to the world. talk as if you OWN the company. talk as if the company is YOURS.

this is the borderline that define the average graduates with the promising graduates. typical graduates will just talk about "ok, we set up pipelines that goes from here n there, we check n develop a team, blablabla.." the interviewers already know that u can do the project, IT IS IN UR TRANSCRIPT. but what they dont know is, ur perspective, ur insights, ur capability to lead, ur whole potential as a future leader, ur way of thinking. these are the qualities that they wanted to know whether u got it or not. because these skill and abilities are not written down on ur transcript.

lastly, my whole interview took 1hour and 45minutes. that is how long i was tortured inside that room. org lain dlm setgh jam jek. all my frens were waiting for me outside because i was the last person on the list that day. but the next day, when i was on my way to my exam, one of the 'kerani' of the company, came looking for me. he said that i scored the highest on that interview, level 6 (level ni reserved only for senior general managers) and that, all i have to do, is do well on my last exams. hihihi.. i was so happy i was singing all the way to the exam hall. :p

ok.. i think that will be enuff for now. happy reading :) if u got more q's pls dun hesitate to ask.. ahakz... (poyo jek rasa :p )

:)


p/s: this is a true story. based on my experiences. kalau bunyi berlagak, it was MEANT to sound dat way. hihi :p



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memory revisited #3

>> Ahad, April 19, 2009

my life journey has not always been easy. betul.. tak tipu nih. ahakz.. i mean, my life has been easy from the start, but then it turns bad. then it turns from bad to worst. and from there, its down hill all the way. up till a certain point in time. which is.. a moment in time.. when things start to get better.. and still, it is far from being easy. when i looked back at what i have been thru, or what i put myself thru.. and in some cases, what other people put me thru.. i am just so amazed that i actually survived.. ya Allah.. i will never get thru all these without You.. and for that.. im truly grateful..
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i want to share with you a story, in a small chapter of my life. its a part where i find myself doing something that i truly loved. and truly enjoyed. this is a chapter when i was living a high-life, living a glamorous life of being a highly-overpaid engineer, doing all the dirty woks, with people that i actually care. and i know, they all loved me too.. jaydee, if u r reading this, u r one of them :)
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by now kan, i think u ppl already figure out i am not a type of lady that love dressing up like a lady, meaning wearing skirts n baju kurung n wearing make up. uh-oh.. that is definitely not me. i am more of a laid back type, jeans n shirts, hp in my pocket rather in my purse. thats basically who i was. and still am. i love being comfortable, and screw those who thought otherwise.

so i landed myself a lucrative job. of course la. with an IQ like mine, i scored a level6 interview. which basically translate to, i am the only one in my batch who scored a level 6. evrybody else, scored a typical level 1. but being me, i dont like an office work. so i opt to be the 'shift engineer'. which means, i joined the boys working 12 hours shift, two days two nights and 4 days off. living the life in the field where all the actions are, and doing all the dirty works. berg mesti tau nih, sbb dia dak mechanical. ahakz.. :p

being the only lady leading a team of 40 men is never an easy task. ahakz.. seriously. i was an executive, but they see myself a woman first, a boss second. i mean, the guys really give me a hard time ok. they didnt like me being their boss, because it was the first time that a lady actually opt to work in shift. so diorang enjoy bullying me around, making fun of me, which is fine by me.

sbb kitorang kerja shift, dat means kena kerja malam. i can tell u right now, IT WAS SCARY THE FIRST FEW NIGHTS STAYING UP WITH 40 GROWN UP MEN WHEN YOU ARE THE ONLY LADY WORKING IN THE WHOLE LARGE 200-FOOTBALL-SIZE OPERATION FIELD.

i remember the first night arriving for work. all of them look.. i dunno... stoned? hihihi.. n i thought, darn, this is not good. not good at all. kalo yg lelaki tu, i think u know what i mean :p but they get over it. dun ask me how. but the guys suka kenakan i. i love walking n cycling around the field. but its a safety protocol, u cant go into any area without an operator. there will always be guys who love going with me into the field at night. and this is what usually happened..

1. if they were standing too close to me, i will simply laugh n elbowed them. i mean if diorang bediri dekat sgt, kdg2 kan kena masuk compressor house, kena cek equipment etc, i just hentak siku i kat perut sapa2 yg dok menghimpit i. haha... u have to be tough, otherwise, u can never get the work done.

2. mula2 i tak perasan nih. asal naik tangga je, diorang suh i naik dulu. ni bkn tangga biasa tau, ni monkey ladder. usually, its 30-40metres tall. and if u tak penah naik monkey ladder, i can tell u, it is not an easy thing to do. penat wooo.. tp the guys suka bawak i ke tmpat yg kena naik monkey ladder. they loved torturing me. n asal naik je, diorang suh i naik dulu. konon kalau i tegelincir, leh sambut i. adeh, i yg naif nih pon ikot je. rupanya2, ada udang disebalik mee. haha.. darn! after that, kalu diorang suh i naik dulu, i kata "u go first, if u fall, i'll let u die". haha.. diorang gelak sakan. after that, diorang x memain dah psl nk tgk 'my-behind' kalu naik tangga.

3. the fireman training. this is the part where the guys loved! we have fire training every 2 weeks. basically, we changed into the fireman suit. the suit is sooooo smelly ok. and then they will set up a huge fire, api beso mcm 5 tingkat bangunan, n we will tackle the fire. basically, u line up n hold the hose, n jaga pergerakan kaki. bcoz i was the boss, i have to be the chief giving instructions, i have to be the one at the front. they always laughed, but i know, diorang respek kat i, pasal i tak penah tunjuk yg i takut. i have to actually meniarap n go underneath the fire to turn off the gasoline pipeline. there was one time that my helmet terlonggar, and they were actually screaming n pulling me from underneath the fire.. i can tell u their face look like ash, pucat giler, but i just smiled. kat dlm, i was shaking with fear. i nak nangis sbnrnya, tp bila tgk diorang actually care for me, it makes me happy.. la la la... :p

4. there were cctv all over the areas. i mean ALL over the places. there is not one corner that u can escape without being watched. ini pun favorite the guys ok. THEY ALWAYS LIKE TO KNOW WHERE I AM. i carry a walkie talkie radio like everbody else. kalau dah malam2 tu, when they couldnt see me anywhere (ie. masa i kat toilet) they will start making noise on the radio. I TRULY HATE THAT. bcos i dont like answering their calls. bila i start ckp dlm walkie talkie.. they all go crazy! mulalah buat bising. paham2 je la. and they loved to monitor my every move on the field. kadang2, i joined the operator pegi inspect pump. bila i tunduk skit, u can actually see the cctv focus on my-behind. i buat tak tau je. paling tak tahan tu, dah la aim cctv, kat walkie talkie siap cakap "feewittt...." hihihi..

but i never show anything less than respect for them. because there is one thing that i truly believed in, for people to respect you, you have to earn it. meaning, u have to fight for their respect and trust. and in the end, we are like one big family. from being the 'babydoll' i became their friend. really. i mean, mula2 tu diorang just nak kenakan i. when they see that i am not like typical ladyboss that they usually meet, they somehow respect me. me n few guys become close. jaydee, pega, thomas, james anthony.. they were like brothers to me. aha.. james anthony.. :)

i truly loved having them as friends. they opened many windows to many views that i never seen before. masa off days, usually the guys akan ada makan2 n piknik. mula2, diorang x ajak pun i. but later, diorang make sure i go to every piknik. siap jemput kat rumah lg. from there, i get to know them personally, i get to know their wives and kids, i get to know their families. we go hiking together, go to beaches and do many fun things as a team.

moral of the story? it always pay to be nice to other people. first impression does not count. its about how you care for others in anyway you can. its about looking deep into other peoples life and try to understand how they behave, how they think and in some cases, try to understand 'the why' of it. try to accept someone as they are, not the ideal picture of whom they are supposed to be. and sometimes, you have to be forgiving..

love u all lots and lots :)


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chased by a dragon



i love watching merlin. and sebenarnya sy suka tgk crita2 yg tak masuk akal. cth nya: heroes, merlin, harry potter etc.. tp skang nih mmg suka bangat tgk merlin. dlm citer merlin nih, ada sekor naga. naga nih is like an advisor to merlin, merlin nih is a young wizard in an old english kingdom called camelot.. so kalu merlin ni ada prob, dia akan dtg jumpa naga tuh kat dlm satu gua nih. ahakz... kan dah kata sy ni suka tgk crita tv yg tak masuk akal :p

anyway, maybe suka sgt tgk merlin, smpi terbawak2 dlm mimpi. smlm daku mimpi daku kene kejar naga. wooo... daku lari sampai tak jejak tanah. ganas giler naga tu kejar daku. siap kene fireball woo.. tp yg peliknya, fireball tak panas. smbil daku berlari tu, smbil naga kejam tu spitting fireball. sedar2, dah pagi. ahakz..

tp kan, slalu org kata kalu mimpi kena kejar haiwan2 nih, petanda ada org nak masuk minang. ahakzz.. betul ke?? ataupun kena kejar ngan ular je? hihi.. tp naga ni bukan ke spesis mcm ular? :p tp kalu buleh la, harap2 pasni jgn la mimpi kene kejar naga. giler tak aci. naga tu dah la terbang, siap muntah api lg. daku terjaga td, jantung degup mcm orkestra rtm. perghh.. kalu pakai bypass, kompon battery dah weak..

hihi




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untitled


ok2.. my n3 nih titlenya is 'untitled'. sbb daku tak tau apo title yg sesuai. sbb bnyk nih daku nk mengompat mlm nih. eh.. malam apo, dah kul 3.46am. haha...

tadi kan... daku dok men gulung2 reben, smbil mata tgk internet la. sambil tu tgk tv. pastu tgk jap arsengal vs chelsea. tp tak tgk abis pun. tetiba ada sms. bnyk lak tuh. ingat wrong number. tp tak kesah la. pastu ada lak org tepon, pon tak kesah la.
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tp yg menarik nih ada cubaan2 tertentu dari pihak2 tertentu untuk..... (dirahsiakan buat sementara waktu). skrg ni daku teruja lak nk jadik hacker. satu bidang yg daku tak pernah ceburi. oleh kerana daku tak reti, so kena cari la geng yg tere..
so, dah dekat kul 2pagi tadi, selamba badaknya daku sms my BFF (bes fren forever).

"yo bro, ko dah tido ke?"
"iye" adeh, jawab sepatah je. kompom dah lentok brader sorang nih.
"ko o9 jap, aku nak mintak tolong nih, urgent. aku tunggu ko o9." keh3. dah kul 2 lebih tu paksa org bangun..
"iye" keh keh keh. kompom mamai.

hah! ingatkan tido, rupanya brader sorang nih dok tgk tv. ingatkan layan bola, rupanya layan citer tv3. hihi.. sembang punya sembang, misi agak2 akan berhasil. ha ha ha.. siap la pasnih. skarang nih kol 4pagi dah. adeh, oleh kerana terlebih excited, mata ku tanak tido. tetibe ade lak berg yg rajin bangun solat tahajud malam2. ahakz. chayok2.
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pastu daku jengok jap blog AT. ada artikel sengal. tak leh jadik nih.. tinggalkan komen jap kat sana.. kutuk2 sket.

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yg nak marah2 ni apasal.. lu olang marah2 smpi sengal ni sbb lu olang punya EQ alias negotiation skill korang out. lu olang ingat, ape lu olang mintak, lu olang bleh dapat ka??

the art of negotiation #1 :
"if u cant give them what they want, give them something u dont mind losing"

ada paham ka? sikalang br lu ong paham kenapa dia bebaskan tahanan ISA sikit2 kan kan kan...

:p

nyle

p/s: tokmoh genius nih dah tak menyengat mcm dulu. ahakz"



hihi.. sekali sekala kenekan org ape salah nye ye dak. tp tajuk 'The Art Of Negotiation' nih menarik sbnrnya. ingat nak tulis sikit pasal nih. tp daku kalu bab nk tulis menda ilmiah dlm blog nih, sumpah malas. haha.. like i said b4, masa lapang daku abis utk berfikir menda berat2. so jadik la blog daku ni blog rojak campur. ngeee...

ok. its 4.14am. time to go. thanks for reading :p

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have a good night in

>> Sabtu, April 18, 2009

malam ni adalah malam sabtu pertama sy berpeluang duduk rehat di rumah.. ahh bestnnya.. beberapa weekend lepas, semua dok spent time for thinking. thinking n writing.. its so bloody tiring n my 'tuckus' hurts so bad from sitting down too long. hihi.. every weekend for the past few weeks i spent outside.. at last, i had time to sit down n just doing absolutely nothing. actually, sepanjang hari ni sy dok melepak n tak buat apa2. just buat bunga ros dr reben smbil tgk tv n smbil tgk itnernet. a happy day.. hehe..
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td kul 8, secara tak sengaja i terswitch on tv ke tv3. really. i mean, i cant remember the last time i actually watched tv3 or any other news channel on tv. serius... first time i tgk news kat tv td after 2-3 months i guess. mula2 dulu tu malas dah nk tgk news kat tv, sedar tak sedar, dah sampai lah pulak ke tahap yg i dah lupa yg tv nih ada news! haha..
tgk2 ada muka najib.. and first thing i thot.."whats this bloody old fart doing on tv giving speeches that makes everybody wanted to spit on his ugly old face? one-malaysia-my-tuckus!" oopss.. dat was mean rite.. :p
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so rather than feeling like i want to termuntah bila tgk muka dis najib, i switched to hallmark. there u go.. my favorite show. oprah winfrey show. hehe.. i love watching oprah. p/s: if there is any reason why i shouldnt watch oprah, tell me now, or forever hold ur silence. hehe.. i just love oprah. i think oprah shud be the US president. i dont mind voting for her if im an american.
she is bloody rich, she got all the money she can ever wish for, she got so many properties, and she is always revising a way to help other people especially children. she is really an icon.
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by the way, i already got new assignment. i am supposed to do research on 'English Renaissance'.
choose any playwrights by any renown english renaissance figures. and i only know one. william shakespeare.. so, this few weeks, i will be keeping in touch with my more romantic sides. ahakz..
there will be romeo and juliet, hamlet, 12 sonatas.. but my problem is, i am not used to english art literature writing skills. i am more used to technical writing. hope i wont screw up this one..

have a good night in :)







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memory revisited #2

saya selalu teringat akan satu mlm, dimana mlm tu, sy bersyukur pd Allah kerana, walau mcmana nakalnya sy zaman dolu2, liat nak join usrah, satu lintasan hati telah mengubah bnyk aspek dlm hidup sy..

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one night in a bloody cold winter, it was only 2degrees outside..

malam tu sy n my bff (bes fren forever..hehe), ayu, dok golek2 depan tv, masing2 dlm selimut tebal, minum hot chocolate n mkn chips, smbil tgk crita CSI. sejuk a amat mlm tu, malas nak wat asaimen.. ayu nih mmg suka melepak kat umah wa, wpun umah dia kat tingkat bwh jek. in fact, ramai budak2 suka lepak umah wa, wpun tanpa dijemput. ahaks.. mungkin sbb umah daku ni bnyk berkat kot. hihi..

"knock knock..asssalamualaikum.."
aik sapo lak ketuk pintu daku memalam nih. (sbnrnya br kul 7. tp kalau winter, kul 4ptg lg dah gelap.. so kul 7 time tu, bih kurang kul 9 kat sini la.. hehe).

"wa'salam.. suya ke.. alah, pintu tak kunci, kalo takde lelaki kat luar tu, ko masuk je la.."
ahaks.. hihi.. standed malas nk bangun, wa malas nk kunci2 pintu dulu, sbb budak2 nih slalu kuar masuk apartmen daku, jenuh la asik nk bukak pintu..

"nih, aku nk jemput korang g ceramah. ada sorang ustaz nih baru smpi dr mesia. kak oja suh angkut korang sekali.. kalu korang nak gi, siap2 la cepat, sat gi aku gerak.. kita gi skali"

alamak... suya nih mmg kaki usrah. dia nih bih kurang cam pengawas, tegas tp loving n caring. daku garu pala, haiya.. dah la daku tgh sedap guling2 depan tv nih, siap ada cokolat panas lg nih.. wa toleh tgk ayu, ayu pon toleh tgk wa.. cesss..

"nak gi ke tak"
"aku gi je kalu ko pegi.." cess budak ayu nih. org tanye die, dia tanya org balik.
"alah.. nape aku lak.. ko nak gi ke tak?" adeh.. daku malas ya amat nih.. sejuk woo.. lgipun tgh tgk Alias.. Jennifer Garner tu..

"ha.. korang decide la dulu.. aku dah tanya ilmi, ilmi kata dia bnyk keja.. kalu korang nak g kang siap2 dlm 10minit aku tunggu kat bwh k.."
"walla pegi tak suya?"
"a ah, walla pun pegi.." aisehmen, budak walla ni bih kurang jek mcm kitorang, nakal2, dia lg teruk, siap layan lagu MUSE tu. suka baju ROXY lak tuh. kalu walla baca nih, abis daku kene sekeh. nih mesti kene paksa ngan suya. walla ni hosmet suya. pastu suya pun balik umah dia. which is sebelah je ngan umah daku... hihi

"ayu, caner, nak gi ke tak.. "
"aku gi je kalu ko pegi.." ek eleh.. budak nih, aku sekeh jugak kang.
"hmm.. jap aku pikey.." ligat otak wa pikey. kalu tak pegi, mau bersoal jawab dgn kak oja nih. kalu kak oja takpe lg, tp kena soal jwb dgn kak suchik lg haru. kak suchik garang woo.. tp daku pikey, kalu daku kata tak nak pegi, ayu pun kompom tak pegi. which is, akan buat daku rasa bersalah.. arghhhh...

"jom la ayu.. cam tak sedap hati lak kalu tak pegi.." ewahh.. cepat je c ayu nih bangun nak bersiap. kitorang bersiap 3 minit je. tarik suar jeans, pakai sweater, carik glove, carik stokin, pakai sneakers. lari2 turun tangga, takut kene tinggal suya..

senyum simpul suya tgk kitorang.. walla pon sengih2 dlm keta..
"yo wassap geng, korang pon gi gak ke.. keh keh keh.." walla siap gelakkan kitorang.
"yer la..ko gelak la.. yg ko pakai baju kurung mcm nak gi kenduri nih apesal? kata beli sweater ROXY. nape tak pakai?" walla sengih2 jek..
"alah.. skali skala je baju kurung, tak leh ke.."
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ceramah tu rupanya kat umah sorang brader nih. brader nih kira pemimpin pelajar la, budak medic, kawin pon ngan akak medic gak. daku dah rasa semacam. tak sedap hati beb..

"weh suya.. biar betul. nih ceramah ke ape? cuba ko tgk keta yg parking kat luar nih. nih bukan ceramah biasa. tuh ha.. keta brader zaki tuu.."
"alah rilek la.. ustaz tu cuma nk kenal2 ngan kite.. "
"weh.. ko kata ceramah.. nih program aper nih suya.."

td wa bayangkan ceramah biasa kat kampus, sewa hall, mcm biasa la..ahh sudah.. nih kes lain dah nih..
"weh ayu.. aku tak rasa nih ceramah biasa. caner nak masuk.. segan la weh.."
"jap.. aku jenguk dalam.."

keh keh keh.. budak ayu nih mmg hopeless.. ade ke patut selamba badak je dia ngintip kat celah tingkap.

"alamak.. giler la.. tuh mak-mak usrah kat dalam. siap ada brader zaki la. weh, nih bkn level kita nih. aku rasa baik kite balik je.. jalan kaki pon takpe.. "
"ye ke ayu. meh aku nak tgk sekali.." daku lak ikot ngintip kat celah tingkap..

"haaaaa.. **** ngan ayu!! ape buat kat tingkap tu! meh la masuk cepat, sejuk kat luar nih.."
opocotttt.. kak oja dah tercegat depan pintu.. alamakkkkkkkkk.... tidaaaaaakkkk...

"err.. kak oja.. nih ceramah ke ape, kitorang ingat ceramah.. tak nak la masuk.. kitorang balik la dulu.. nih bkn level kitorang nih.. kami segan la kak.. kitorang balik dulu la.."
"aper lak segan.. meh la, ustaz tu ok je, dia tak kesah.." kak oja pon tarik je kitorang masuk..

perghh.. tak pernah daku rasa satu saat yg sgt memalukan sampai la mlm tu. melangkah je depan pintu, tgk semua brader2 yg power2.. tgk akak2 medic je ramai, yg pakai jubah, tudung labuh.. paling sempoi pun bj kurung. semua org toleh tgk kitorang yg pakai jeans n sweater je. daku lak jeans biru kaler lusuh, sweater kaler itam. glove daku plak yg style bikers, tp glove bikers nih kak oja yg bagi.. huhuhu.. mcm nak nangis je rasa..

"assalamualaikum.. ooo, nih la anak usrah kak oja.." ustaz tu lak yg bg salam.. adeh..
"walaikumsalam.. a ah, sy ****** yang nih ayu.." ustaz tu senyum je tgk kami terkulat2 mcm tertelan duit syiling. ustaz tu pakai jubah kaler ijau, kopiah kaler putih.
"ha, ustaz dah tahu.. meh masuk, kita baru nak mula nih.."

uwaaaaa... malu ya amat nih.. kak oja senyum2 je menten cool.. daku carik mana la c walla nih, ampeh tul la.. kejam tul. at least sound2 la member. at least daku akan pakai jaket panjang, bukan sweater hooded ala-ala T-PAIN n FLO RIDA nak wat konsert hiphop..
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it was all good memories.. bila ingat balik, mmg kelakar.. hehehe.. syukurlah Allah buka kan hati malam tu untuk pergi, sbb malam tu, semua apa yg ustaz tu sampaikan, adalah sesuatu yang hilang dr hidup sy selama nih. bnyk lagi la, sape2 yg join jemaah, insyaAllah faham maksud saya. takkan sama bagi mereka yang faham dan tak faham. Alhamdulillah...
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it was easy to forgive others, but sometimes, it was so hard to forgive ourselves for betraying our own beliefs, for betraying what we've been fighting so hard for..






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DIG THIS!! Kereta PROTON Dipersenda di United Kingdom - TOPGEAR

>> Jumaat, April 17, 2009


SUMBER: http://www.topgear.com/uk/proton

this is really funny guys..

TOPGEAR:
"We don’t know what Malaysian motorists did to upset the gods, but it must have been something pretty serious, judging by the punishment they seem to be getting. Still, at least the domestic audience thinks this stuff is the norm – what on earth do they think they’re doing bringing it to the UK? Walk away."

maksudnya: "
kami tak tahu apa yang pemilik kenderaan Malaysia lakukan sehingga tuhan marah sgt dengan diorang, tp diorang mesti buat something g betol2 jahat sehinggakan tuhan marah kat diorang, sbb tgk lah kereta-kereta buruk yang dijual kat diorang.. tapi kira ok lah..kat sana diorang dah biasa pakai kereta kualiti teruk mcm nih.. yg peliknya, apa la ada dlm otak diorang (org PROTON) sampai diorang berani bawak keta buruk mcm proton nih masuk ke UK? JGN BELI!"

haha.. ini terjemahan direct daripada sindiran majalah TOPGEAR UK kat atas..

cuba baca review diorang ttg proton savvy lak.

TOPGEAR:"Truly awful, but we are grateful to Proton for reminding us of how good every other small car on sale in the UK is. We suggest you try buying one of those instead."

Terjemahan: "Sangat teruk. tapi kami bersyukur proton sekurang-kurangnya mengingatkan kami akan kelebihan-kelebihan kereta bersaiz kecil yang ada di UK. Belilah kereta kecil (UK punya)"

haiya.. mmg memalukan.. jual je la dlm negara kalau dah tak leh nak compete ngan international standard.. org yg tak mampu mcm saya ni sure akan beli punya.. kan dah memalukan negara..

kita tunggu apo review diorang ttg EXORA lak, first malaysian MPV.. ngee...


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