again.. for someone who needs to hear this..

aduh.. pala pening ya amat nih.. tak cukup tido plus bnyk keje yg menggunakan kekuatan otak plus bdn agak2 letih.. br kul 10.40, balik umah, tinggal niaga jap.. nk sambung keje, tgk ada msg lg kat ym..

again.. for somone who needs to hear this..

menyimpan harapan.. or wishing n hoping is a good ting, only if u sanggup berdepan dgn kenyataan.. hoping that there is a glimmer of hope, wishing that h or she might still have something for u, is just tiring... sgt meletihkan.. sgt mengelirukan..

i dunno the best words to describe it.. but read my story ok..

when we ended a relationship.. pasti ada satu pihak yang akan terluka.. ini hukum alam.. call it the Universal Relationship Law #2 ataupun URL no 2.. hehehe... this is so true.. tanya la sapa pun.. siapa yg melukakan, ataupun dilukakan.. will aways bear a mark.. or hold a grudge, or simpan 'unfinished' question, unsatisfying answer.. blablabla.. at the time when the relationship ended, u lek rasa impak maksima, rasa down, rasa sedih, rasa mcm nak mati, rasa kecewa, rasa hopeless, and all sorts of feelings, mcm2 rasa yang dipakejkan dalam satu kotak berbentuk hati.. so far... this is what happen kan.. ini daripada sudut pandang awani.. eh.. sudut pandang pihak yang terluka la.. ngeee... n pihakyg terluka ini akan merana utk beberapa waktu, pendek atau panjang bergantung la.. tp, org kata.. all bad things will come to an end.. lambat laun, pasti akan berlalu..

dari sudut pandang pihak yg melukakan.. mungkin dia tak happy dgn keputusan yg dia buat, tp terpaksa, ataupun atas sbb2 yg tak dapat dielakkan.. usually pihak ni akan rasa 'ahh.. akhirnya dpt gak aku luahkan semua yg terbuku slama ni..' ataupun 'selamat.. benda mmg takleh diselamatn buat apa nk simpan..' n mcm2 lg la.. pihak ni akan cuba menyedapkn hati sendiri dgn apa keputusan yg dia buat.. n try to move forward.. nak lupakan apa yg berlaku la.. something like dat..

selang beberapa waktu.. as time goes by.. bnyk benda dlm hidup kita akan mencorakkan persepsi, perasaan, hidup kita.. and ingat ni baik2..semat dlm otak.. gigit kuat2.. akan ada satu ketika dimana pengalaman yang kita lalui dimasa lepas, menghantui keadaan situasi kita pada masa ini.. this is seriously true.. more true than any truth.. if truth is white, than my statement ni is whiter than white.. n when this happen.. u start to remember.. u start ingat balik all the things u have done.. all the words dat have cut deep in other people soul.. semua benda happy, sad, semua2 tu akan muncul n buat ulang tayang depan mata u.. n when benda ni jadi kat u.. u start to have conflict.. dulu u adlah pemangsa.. n now, bila u ingat2 balik, u akan ada this mentaliti 'mangsa' atau 'victim'.. u akan rasa bersalah.. n start to have regrets.. menyesal.. why did i do that.. kenapa aku sakiti hati dia. kenapa aku buat camtu.. kenapa.. kenapa.. kalaulah aku tak buat cam tu.. kalau lah... if if if...

n now.. i guess this is where u are rite now.. the guilt phase.. the wishing phase.. the hoping phase.. u wish u could go back in time.. u wish u could ave done something utk mengelakkan semua ni.. how u wish things had been different.. if only u had one more chance.. if if if n more ifs n iffes.. i faham.. i get that.. but.. this is kritikal.. what im gonna say next, will haunt u forever, if u r not strong enuff..

org yg terluka, yg mengalami impak maksima sewaktu u ended the relationship.. is probably over the mourning phaase.. masa utk dia brkabung sudah berlalu.. masa u tg seronok, atau tgh rasa lega sbb tamatkan perhubungan tu,pada masa yg samatu dia cuba rawat diri dia.. n now, the tide has change.. what goes around comes around.. bila ada senang, ada susah.. thats what happen... life is like diz.. diz is life at its worst.. tp bg si dia yg sudah tmat tempoh berkabung.. dia probably go on with dia punya life.. n u r still stuck at the same spot.. or u had comeback to the same spot..
u r jealous.. u cemburu.. n this is ur mistake.. u wish yg si dia tu masih have feelings for u..

ppl yg terluka, takkan mudah lupa.. wpun dia tgh happy skrg, kdg2 akan tertanya2 gak.. bukan bermaksud dia masih ingat kat u like u used to be.. tp dia mungkin perlukan 'closure'.. everybody needs a closure.. everybody needs to know something that will close a chapter in their life.. when u ended a relationship.. bila u tutup n putuskan satu perhubungan.. maksudnya.. u close a chapter in ur life.. bermula episod baru.. but b4 that, u needs to hv closure.. penamat atau finale.. both pihak kena ada finale.. so dat minda dan hati akan tenang..

againb.. for u who needs to hear this.. si dia tu mungkin dah temui closure in the chapter of his or her life.. diri u sendiri adalah finale nya.. si dia tu mungkin akan bertanya sesuatu pada u, sbb bg dia, its a closure for him or her.. but remember.. what u said, will almost have no impact in his or her life.. bcoz whatever the finale.. it is a finale.. it is the end.. it is a closure.. its is done.. its sad.. but this holds true.. u might not agree, u might think this is all bulls s*it.. but u now its true.. deep in ur heart.. u already know the answer.. the question is.. are u man enuff to handle this?

:)

p/s: this story is generally true for the general population.. ia tak menggambarkan apa yg pernah saya alami.. does not reflect what i feel.. for my story is sedikit berbeza.. its a beautiful closure.. its a finale that for me.. never ends..

:)